Chapter 02

" S-O-S-O-S-O, right now

Every day, we're fightin'

A silent war we never wanted

Come on, right now

People keep on dyin'

When the world is killin' you, yeah"

Music indeed makes everything better...it's like a virtual hug specially now, when I need one so desperately. Who knew that on my 21st birthday, I will be cast away from home. I do know that the word cast away might be a bit extreme but seriously I feel so bad that I get to spend my birthday all alone in an unknown destination in an unknown city.

I mean my birthdays are normally lonely and I rarely get a cake or a present due to our family financial crisis but at least I am with my family. Right now according my father who's actually driving me to my college hostel justifies this act as been independent right on your 21st birthday.

My phone is flooded with many birthday wishes from friends as of course I hold a status of being everyone's friend and some of these wishes might even be considered as guilty wishes as some so-called friends of mine  normally lose contact with me right after they got my help. None of these wishes makes my heart full , rather it feels more empty and heavy.

"Look Hope, it's the beach !!" My mother who has also joined to drop me pointed towards the beach that we were passing right now on our way to the hostel. There it is again, the heaviness in my heart...I am a person who keeps things to one's self but most recently I felt the need to celebrate my 21st birthday on a beach but as I am used to not asking anything from my parents, I kept it to myself.

"They wouldn't be having anytime to do anything even if I had asked" I thought to myself and signed. " What's with the big sign?" My dad asked from me while checking on me on the front view mirror of the car.

"Nothing, just tired as it's nearly getting dark" I said while looking at the beach that's still been passed by us. The sea breeze really makes you feel calm and free,I closed my eyes to enjoy the breeze a bit but as usual was interrupted by my parents.

" I told you numerous times that we should leave early but look at the time right now ? no wonder that hope feels tried" My father started to nag my mother while my mother rolled her eyes. "Here we go again" I thought to myself and made the volume of my headphones go even higher, so that I don't want to hear their quarrels. See...this is why I rarely speak , one word would make my parents lose their  cool just like now.

It's almost 7.00 in the evening when we finally got into the hostel. It is indeed a big building with white painted all over it. It has this luxurious look  with it's three stories and of course it should be by looking at the fees...My parents insisted that I must stay here, because they want me to be comfortable and they also insist staying in this place because of the good security. I really can't understand them, they do love me a lot but I guess the thing that they lack is comprehending me, the real me and not the me that they had build in their minds.

Anyways the fees of this particular hostel made me feel burden and a sense of responsibility rushed within me as to do my best in my college studies as well.

" Well then darling, this is it. Your father took everything up to your room and according to your matron ..the rest of your roommates will be coming tomorrow." My mom hugged me while telling me the information and rules that i have to follow while staying here. "Okay then, everything is settled there and you only have to unpack your things Hope...why don't we go now as it's getting late" My father walked towards us and then gave me a kiss on the forehead. " Okay guys..then see you soon and be careful on your way home", I hugged them once again and went upstairs to find my room , while my parents got on the car and drove away.

There it is again...the heaviness in my heart...I signed and took out my key to the room of 301, the room where I will be staying for at least four years. The room is quite spacious with an attached bathroom, there are two bunk beds for four people apparently. I chose the upper bed as then I would have at least a little bit of privacy because who knows what kind of room mates I would have. I started to unpack but the unfamiliarity and the loneliness that I keep feeling started to get worse that I had a severe headache. Great!!! I thought to myself as I finally laid down on my bed. The door to the balcony of my room was made with glass and so the moonlight had come through the glass and on to my face. I smiled and it might be the first time that I genuinely  smiled today.

From tomorrow onward I will be starting a new life and I truly hope that I would be happy, can I finally find happiness with the start of my new life , I hope so ...with that humble yet hopeful wish, I closed my eyes letting my heavy feelings finally submerge in to sleep. "Happy Birthday Hope Peyton" I whispered to myself and finally darkness crept over me which indicated that I finally was asleep.

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