Ch 3 ~ is this love ?

1 April 2015 9:00 PM

dear diary

Sometimes we realize some things very late and when we do that it is already very late to make changes . And that was what i did with myself . You want to know then let me tell you .

I was still a 24 year old intern searching for a good company . My parents started pressuring me to marry and i told them that i am not ready to take responsibility and a big step like marriage .

I took a vacation and decided to make a trip on my bike alone to a tourist place so i travelled to Ladakh . It was good and i returned . One day as i was browsing my phone an ad came of a matrimonial site . I made up my mind to give it a try so i made my profile . And in a few hours i got a request from a girl named Geetika . I accepted of course . Then we started to chat and from there we became close call friends . This friendship goes on for a year until one day. I plan to surprise her by going to her home town to meet her face to face .

The next day I went to a restaurant near her house and called her to come there and next she came and hugged me tightly . I was very happy as her . We go on a ride on my bike to the mountain roads.

We rest and go to trek a little in the woods of the mountain forest . Suddenly she stops and turn towards me and say "ravi , umm i want to say that i have fallen in love with you" shocked from a sudden confession i hesitatingly say " umm geetika I _I can't at least not now but we can...." before i could continue she kissed me . I was speechless at first but somehow i don't know why but i also kissed her back . It was like we were attracted towards each other unknowingly and no one wants to part with each other . But in my mind i was questioning myself "Can I take a big responsibility like a special bond of life like marriage . I was confused.

At last we parted to breathe in the air . We were panting and she said "It's ok i will wait but please don't let me wait for a long time" I smiled and nodded .

We talked at least 2 times everyday . There was not a thing that i kept a secret from her .One day she say to me "Ravi , my parents are really forcing me to marry " "i can't geetika please try to understand that i am not able to take a responsibility like marriage and besides i have to settle in my job first " yes i got my job at a good company in these years only but due to this the 2 times we use to talk everyday got converted to 2 times in a week . This gradually caused us to lose our normal conversation time and with time we became a little distant .

"you always say this only and what you do is just talking with that colleague of yours" ,"hey are you jealous ", "you can say it whatever you want to say but please tell me your decision fast . "no geetika i can't sorry and please don't disturb me for these types of talks i am busy . "fine Ravi i will not call you ever again now goodbye. 'TUT TUT'

And the call was cut . i was so angry at her behavior so i decided not to call her . From then 3 months go on like this and we haven't contacted each other in these months. One day i thought about going to her hometown to meet her so I called her .

I was planning to propose to her as i finally settled my mind . As the call connected her calm voice came over "Hi Ravi how are you" , " I am fine . hey can we marry now " there was a dead silence on the line but she broke it and said " Ravi i am in my 2nd month of my pregnancy and i have been married since last 3 months ." Now the news that shocked me made me a little dizzy .

"Ohh ok take care i will call you later " and i cut the call .I go back to my house thinking that what should have happened if I have been a little faster in making my decision or i would have kept my ego at a side and accepted her feelings .

But regret is the best way of punishment . We also talk from time to time and her child is also very cute. Now she has been married and here i am still a hopeless single

Bye diary

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