welcome home

The parts in italic are what Jungkook wrote in his diary.

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Chapter Text

Jungkook POV

We re-entered the room, hand in hand and he led me to the bed. Everyone looked at us, not saying anything. Jimin sat at the right of the bed and grabbed my hand one more time, smiling at me.

"Uhm... Okay... Are you calm now Jimin ? Can we explain ourselves ?" said Jin hyung.

I was curious too. I wanted to know why they didn't tell him what happened.

"Yes. Let's talk. But outside." Jimin turned to me. "I'll come back right after." I nodded even if I wanted to know too. He let go of my hand, stood up and went out with Jin hyung and Namjoon hyung while the others stayed with me to distract me.

"Can you tell me ? I want to know why you didn't tell him earlier too. Please." I begged.

"Jungkookie..." Yoongi hyung sighed. "I know that you're curious but there are things that we can't tell you."

I pouted and silence fell in the room.

Jimin POV

"Okay hyung, explain." I said, with an air of defiance.

"So, first, I'm sorry." began Jin hyung. "We didn't want to hide it from you. We were going to tell you tonight but you discovered it by yourself."

"We discovered that Jungkook's inner self remembers everything." continued Namjoon hyung.

"I know that too. But this doesn't explain anything."

"You remember that the doctor said to re-enact moments you shared with him ?" I nodded. "So we thought of making a list of everything his subconscious lets out and re-enact those moments, including the important ones for your relationship."

"That's a good idea. I apologize for shouting. But, you know, I'm worried and I love him so much..."

"But now, we have a question for you Jiminie" intervened Jin hyung. I looked at him. "Why didn't you tell us what happened with Taehyung before the accident ?"

Oh shit.

"I didn't want you all to blame him for what happened to Kookie. But how do you know ? Did he tell you ?"

"First, Jimin, we wouldn't blame him. Nor you. It's no one's fault and I hope that you understand that. Don't blame yourself. And he didn't have to tell us. When we went home the night Jungkook was admitted in the hospital, Tae didn't stop crying at all. He woke up at night crying uncontrollably and began to mumble words like 'Kookie', 'my fault', 'Jimin', 'kiss'... So Hoseok understood everything and told us. You know, it would have been better if you had told us right away." told Jin hyung.

"I'm sorry. I was just... worried." I said, looking down.

"That's not a problem. Just make sure that it doesn't happen again, okay ?" I nodded. "Now, what did Jungkook say to freak you out like that ?" asked Jin hyung.

"He told me to call him by his nickname and he pouted."

"What ? But he never said that." said Namjoon hyung.

"In fact, he said it, twice, but only to me. The first time was that one night when we made up. The second was the morning we had our first comeback stage. And everytime he said that, we became closer. It was really important. If he hadn't opened up, we wouldn't have ended up together..."

"I understand why you were so surprised. It is really important for both of you. So we will add this sentence to our list now." stated Namjoon hyung and I nodded.

We went back in the room and I saw that Jungkook was in deep thoughts. He had his head turned to his right, looking at the chair which I always sit in. V looked at me, pleadingly and turned his face to Jungkook then back to me. I immediatly understood. I approached Jungkook and took his hand. He jumped a little at the touch but relaxed immediatly. I sat in the chair and he looked worried.

"What were you thinking about so hard ?" I asked, my voice soft.

"I was thinking about what you were talking about outside." he answered honestly. I raised my head to look at everyone and noticed that they were all sitting on the little couch on the left of the bed, staring at me, waiting for my answer. I looked at Jungkook and smiled.

"Kookie, we were talking about the fact that your subconscious makes you say things that you aren't aware of and that we have to list them all."

"Why ?"

"Because that way, it would be easier to help you recover your memory."

"How ? Do I have to read the list or..." I laughed.

"No. We'll re-enact the scenes in which you said what you said, but without telling you beforehand so that it would be natural. We won't tell you what you said either."

"Thank you for willing to help me remember you. It is very important for me." he squeezed my hand lightly and smiled at me. I stood up, ruffled his hair and said

"I think we'll go back now. You have endured many things today and you look tired." he began to look sad. "But we'll come back tomorrow to take you home." I winked and he blushed a little. We all said goodbye to him and went back home by feet. The hospital was at about 20 minutes from our home so we didn't call the manager to pick us up. It gave me some time to think about all that happened today.

"What are you thinking about ?" asked Yoongi hyung, placing his hand on my shoulder.

"Uhm... nothing... It's just..." I looked at him.

"Just you don't know where you stand with Jungkookie ? I understand that. I don't know either." he smiled at me. I was startled that he knew exactly what I was thinking. I wondered if he could read minds.

"I can't read minds but I read faces really well." he laughed. " Your face is talking for you instead of your mouth Jiminie. That's why Jungkook is always blushing. Your expression when you look at him screams love. It's cute." I smiled, a bit embarrassed.

"What can I do ? I love him so much. But it hurts not knowing where I stand with him."

"The only person who can answer that is Jungkook himself. But don't go ask him right now. Wait a bit. If he has feelings for you, he'll try to have you by all means. I don't know if you noticed but he kind of became more direct than before."

"Yes... It feel strange. He was the one who came to calm me down earlier. He asked me about his feelings too. That's why I'm so confused now."

"Fighting Jimin. You'll be able to overcome this, together. And we'll help you." Yoongi hyung said, winking.

We arrived at home and ate. There wasn't anything so we ate instant noodles. Before going showering, I had an idea so I decided to tell everyone.

"I have something to say. About the plan that you thought of, I have something that will help us to make Kookie remember me."

"Really ? What is it ?" asked Taehyung.

"The morning after Jungkook's accident, I had a book with me, remember ?" Everyone nodded. "It was Jungkook's diary. He wrote everything that happened since he auditioned and there are some pages written about me. I haven't read much 'til now but I think that we could use it. Even if we have to invade his privacy."

"You're right. Him recovering his memory is way more important." said Hoseok hyung. Silence fell for about 2 minutes.

"Okay, now, who'll go showering first ? Yoongi hyung ?" said Namjoon hyung. Yoongi hyung went to the bathroom right away. And the same routine took place.

When I went to my room after showering, I picked up the diary once again and began to read. This page was about our debut stage.

It became real finally. My dream. I'm standing on stage, singing and dancing like I've dreamt of. I'm so happy. But before going on stage, I was really nervous. Like everyone. Jimin was the most nervous one I think.

"Even when you're writing about me you drop the hyung." I smiled.

Of course, he had to show his abs and everything. He kept saying things like he wasn't ready to show them, that the fans won't like it... What nonsense ! First of all, the fans loved it and he was more than ready to show them . I mean, if PD-nim has chosen him to be the only one to show his abs, it was because he was the only one ready. Moreover, at such a young age, his abs were daebak ! What the hell am I saying ? Anyway... But there was something that was bothering me. The choreography... is really cool but there is a part where I should lift Jimin up... During practices, it was not a big deal for me but in live... It was a whole different topic ! I didn't know why, but  I was a lot more uncomfortable doing it in front of fans. I mean we are very close to each other, doing it in front of fans is different from doing it in front of the members... But well, it was one of the greatest days of my life ! 방탄소년단, FIGHTING !

"That's really funny because I was thinking exactly the same. It was exciting and scary to do this step in front of fans. I felt uncomfortable but they liked it so..."

Then, I went to read a page where I saw my name written in big and angry emoticons drawn everywhere. It was a bit after the beginning of our second round of promotions with 'We Are Bulletproof Pt.II'.

I discovered that I was dead meat and a freaking idiot for the same reason. I have a crush on Jimin ! I'm so stupid ! Let me die. Please. Just let me die. From all the persons in the world, it has to be Park Jimin, the cute, handsome -WHAT ?!- ANNOYING GUY FROM MY BAND ! What I don't understand is why do I have a crush on him if I find him annoying ? Because he is freaking CUTE ! Being all clingy with me like that... it's so cute ! Okay, I've lost it. THAT'S WHY I'M DEAD MEAT ! I'VE LOST IT ! COMPLETELY ! I should be honest with myself. When I think of Jimin, what first comes to mind are the words 'cute', 'handsome', 'funny', 'clingy', 'annoying', 'sexy' and 'abs'. The 2 last words are here because of his dancing skills. I'm so dead right now. And I'm an idiot. I knew that he was different from all the members to me but not to that extent ! And I knew that he was making my heart flutter, my cheeks burn (and my body hot) but I let it be. If I had done something to stop myself from feeling anything, I wouldn't be here right now, realizing that... I'm in love with my hyung. Yes, I love Jimin hyung. I must go to sleep or else I'll die from stupidity.

"He's cute... I didn't know it was from so long ago. About as long as me. I'll continue tomorrow, I must sleep." So I lied in my bed, the diary in my arms and fell asleep.

The next day

Author POV

The next morning, all the members went to the hospital to meet the doctor before taking Jungkook home.

"Hello everyone. I just want to tell you some things in case Jungkook-ssi feels dizzy or anything. When it happens, you must let him sleep at least 2 hours. When he wakes up, give him medicine. If he still feels dizzy, it will disappear. You must be gentle when re-enacting the moments with him. I mean that you must always act exactly as you did the first time. The first times, he will surely feel dizzy and he may pass out because he would feel a kind of déjà-vu impression. So don't panic. Now, you can go and take him home in about 2 hours."

"Thank you Doctor Park." said Namjoon, bowing.

"I don't want to see you ever again inside this hospital" replied the doctor smiling. All the members smiled too and the doctor went his way.

They all entered the room. Jungkook was still sleeping. Everyone sat down in the couch except Jimin who sat on the chair and Jin who remained uprised, each one at one side of the bed.

"It's 10 A.M and he's still sleeping ?" asked Jin.

"Of course. He doesn't wake up before 9:30 A.M and he could still sleep until 12 P.M." answered Jimin, smiling.

They all sat there, silently, Suga sleeping, Jin and RapMon talking with their eyes while J-Hope was hugging V who was asleep. Jimin just sat there, with Jungkook's hand in his, taking all of his features in, inhaling his scent. After about 1 hour, Jungkook's eyes fluttered open.

"Good morning Kookie~" said Jimin, smiling.

"Morning hyung. Why are you here ?" answered Jungkook, tired but smiling. "And where are the others ?"

"We came to take you home. And Jin hyung, RapMon hyung and Suga hyung went to the cafeteria to get something to eat. But V and Hobi hyung are still here." replied Jimin.

J-Hope has fallen asleep waiting for Jungkook to wake up. Now, V and J-Hope were sleeping in each other's arms.

"They are cute sleeping like that. And quiet." Jungkook laughed. "I'd like someone to hold me when I sleep too" he added. He looked at Jimin, wanted to be hugged by him. The latter's heart fluttered but he didn't gave in.

"You're cute Jungkookie. Should we wake them up ?"

"Can I take a picture before ?" asked Jungkook, hiding his disappointment.

"Okay" Jimin laughed. He took Jungkook's phone from the bedside table and took a picture of Hoseok and Taehyung.

"Thanks. Now, let's wake them up." Jungkook smiled.

Jimin stood up, went to Hoseok's side and shouted

"IT'S TIME TO WAKE UP !!!"

The 2 males woke up all of a sudden, hugging each other even tighter. Jungkook and Jimin bursted out of laughter. Hoseok and Taehyung turned their heads to look at each other and blushed a deep shade of red before both letting go of the other. Then, the 3 other males who went to the cafeteria barged in the room.

"What happened ? Who screamed ?" asked Jin, worried.

Jimin and Jungkook were still laughing hard but they managed to explain what happened.

"You're such idiots ! We are in a hospital ! I thought something bad happened !" said Jin, his eyes teary from fear and anger.

"Alright Jin, they were just playing. They're kids." said Namjoon, hugging Jin to comfort him.

Jimin and Jungkook stopped laughing and looked at each other, smirking.

"We are sorry Jin hyung. We won't do it ever again." apologized Jungkook. Jimin nodded eagerly. "But if it happens again, you still have Namjoon hyung to comfort you." continued Jungkook, teasing his hyungs. Jimin made a high-five with Jungkook and they laughed. Jin and RapMon stood there, blushing and dumbfounded.

"Okay, I have something to tell you." said Namjoon. He took Jin's hand and continued "We are together. Like boyfriends, okay ? Now, can you stop teasing us ? It's really bothersome." 

Everyone stood there, shocked. Oh my god, they are going to say everything to PD-nim thought Jin. After 30 seconds, V shouted

"WHEN ? HOW ? WHY ? OMG !" Hoseok placed his hand on V's mouth, making him shut.

"I'm so happy for you" said Jimin.

"Congrats" said Jungkook and Suga at the same time.

"Yup, you're cute together." said Hoseok. They were all smiling.

"Uhm... yes. Thanks" replied Jin.

"And V, how we ended up together is none of your business" said Namjoon. V pouted.

"Okay. Can we go home now ? I missed my bed and my room." intervened Jungkook.

"You don't want to eat before ?" asked Suga.

"I prefer eating with you. I don't like eating alone."

"But I have nothing prepared. You'll have to wait." said Jin.

"It's okay. I've missed your cooking hyung" smiled Jungkook.

"It's about 12 P.M and we already signed the papers to take you home so... We'll let Jimin gather your stuffs and we'll go tell the doctor that we are leaving. We'll also call the manager so that he can take us home." said Namjoon and everyone went out.

Jimin slowly began to move. He took Jungkook's backpack and put his phone inside it with the earphones. He went to the little wardrobe, opened it and took the clothes that Jungkook was wearing during the accident. There was still blood on them and Jimin turned to Jungkook.

"Do you want to keep them ?" he asked.

"No. They have bad memories with them." replied Jungkook.

Jimin threw them in a bin that was beside the wardrobe.

"I brought you fresh clothes. Will you be able to wear them on your own ?"

"I think yes. But can you help me stand up ?" asked Jungkook.

"Of course."

Jimin went to Jungkook's side, made him sit and grabbed him by his waist so that he could stand straight. Both men were uncomfortable but neither said anything. They were loving their closeness too much to dare open their mouths. By instinct, Jimin helped Jungkook to remove his shirt and put the fresh one on, even if it wasn't needed at all. Jungkook let him do, but when his shirt was on, he said

"Hyung, could you go out please ?"

"Y-yes. I'm sorry, I wasn't thinking at all."

"No problem... Just... Wait outside." said Jungkook.

Jimin got out and right after the door closed, Jungkook let out a deep sigh of relief. His heart was beating so hard he thought he was having an attack. But he felt the butterflies in his stomach and calmed down. He struggled to put his pants on but finally did. Before going out of the room, he took some time to cool himself down.

On the other side, Jimin was having some difficulties to breathe. Being so close to Jungkook was something he had forgotten within 4 days.

I want to hug and kiss him so much... I'll have to be patient. It's better if he remembers first. I'll do all that I can to make him remember as quick as possible. 

He waited for Jungkook to come out and when he did, Jimin noticed that he was sweating.

"Are you okay ? You're sweating." he asked, concerned.

"Oh, yeah. I struggled to put my pants on, that's all" replied Jungkook, smiling. In fact, he was still feeling hot from the skinship they had earlier. He tried washing his face but it didn't work. On the contrary, it became worse. He dried himself and instantly began sweating. He didn't want to make Jimin wait so he went out of the room.

"I could have helped you... No, sorry, it would've been awkward" Jimin laughed, embarrassed. Jungkook blushed and smiled.

"It's okay. Shall we go ?" Jimin nodded.

Instinctively, he went to grab Jungkook's hand but stopped himself in time. Jungkook noticed that and giggled. He took Jimin's hand and said

"I need you to help me walk. I'm feeling a bit dizzy right now."

"O-okay." replied Jimin, confused but happy.

They got out of the hospital and everyone was waiting for them in front of the van. Jimin and Jungkook greeted the manager and got in the back of the car, still holding hands. Everyone got in the van and they all began talking. Jimin was about to remove his hand when Jungkook squeezed it lightly. He leaned in and whispered in Jimin's ear

"It's fluttering hyung. My heart."

Jimin's heart began to pound wildly and Jungkook smiled. When they arrived, they got out of the car, slowly, carefull not to hurt Jungkook. When they entered the house, Jimin said

"Welcome home Kookie" and smiled his eye-smile.

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