waking up

Jimin POV

When we arrived at the hospital, the doctors quickly took Jungkook to surgery. 5 minutes after, the members came along with the manager, asking what happened. It took me some time to calm myself down and to be able to talk without crying too much. I only told them he had an accident. I didn't talk about what happened with Taehyung because I didn't want them to blame him for what happened to Jungkook. It wasn't his fault. It was mine. Because I couldn't stop him from kissing me, because I didn't tell him that Jungkook would come over. Because I couldn't calm Jungkook and explain myself. Thinking of that, I began to cry again. I was scared that the surgery won't be a success. And if it succeeded, that Jungkook won't wake up. What would I do without him ? I'm nothing without him. I can't live without this boy, without seeing him everyday, hearing his laugh, taking his hands, cuddle with him, kissing him... Jin hyung must have read my mind because he came by my side, hugged me and began to whisper "Everything will be alright Jimin. Jungkook is strong, he'll be able to wake up, don't worry". I lifted my head and saw that he was crying too, as well as V and J-Hope. Namjoon hyung, Suga hyung and manager hyung weren't crying but they seemed worried.

After waiting about an hour, a doctor came, asking for Jungkook's guardian. We said that it was the manager, so he went to sign some paper. When he came back, he was with another doctor.

"Hello, I'm doctor Park and I performed surgery on Mr. Jeon"

"How is he ?" asked Namjoon.

"He is alright. He was brought just in time. But he lost a lot of blood and he's still in the intensive care unit. He'll be moved in a room tomorrow morning so you could see him."

"Thank you for your hard work" said Jin hyung, bowing.

"See you tomorrow" said the doctor and went back.

We got out of the building and in the car.

"I'll drop you at home and go to the company to tell them the news. What a relief it happened after the end of your promotions" stated the manager.

"You serious hyung ? How could you say that ?" said Taehyung. He was still crying, maybe feeling guilty. He shouldn't. I'll talk to him later.

"Don't misunderstand ! It's tragic, but it would have been worse if it had happened during promotions".

He dropped us at home and went. As we entered the house, I grabbed V's wrist and dragged him to his room.

"Tae, we have to talk." I told him.

"Chim, I'm sorry, it's all my-" he began.

"Don't say that. It isn't your fault. You kissed me, I couldn't stop you and he saw us." I sighed.

"I'm so sorry Jimin-ah. I... I thought I was in love with you because I was so jealous but turns out I wasn't... That's why I feel so guilty. Because I kissed you for nothing and Jungkook nearly died because of my stupidity ! I feel so guilty" he began to cry. It was the first time I saw Taehyung like that. He was never crying. He wasn't the very emotional type. But seeing him crying like that made me realise that he really felt guilty. I hugged him.

"It's okay Tae... He's well so don't worry. And he'll wake up, I'm sure of it. Now, let's go to sleep. I'm glad there isn't any misunderstanding between us bro" I said, smiling.

"Me too bro. Night~" he replied, sniffling.

I got out of his room. When I got in mine, I layed in the bed, all dressed and Jungkook's scent was all over the sheets. It kind of comforted me. I was drifting to sleep when I saw something sparkling under Jungkook's armoire. I got up, passed my arm under the furniture and found a book. What was sparkling was in fact the book's cover. I understood it was Jungkook's diary. I wanted to know what was in it so, knowing I was invading his private space, I opened it. Plus, if I only saw it today (tonight), it must be a sign.

The first page was about the audition. It was the first day I met Jungkook. I began to read.

Today, I passed the audition to enter Big Hit Entertainment. I was so nervous. I was scared that I would forget the lyrics or make a mistake while dancing. And the guy that performed before me was a great singer and dancer.

"It was me, right ?"

His voice was so beautiful, I blushed when he began to sing. His voice was shaking a bit and he obviously felt uncomfortable but well... It was beautiful nonetheless. His name was Jimin. He was around my age I think. Maybe older. He was short and had chubby cheeks. He was so cute !  But now, I can't think of him. I'm going to the US for dance training ! Yay ! I can't wait ! Thank you God, I got in Big Hit and thank you Big Hit for accepting me !

"He's so cute" my eyes became watery so I took a deep breath and went on reading. There were a few pages about his trip to the US but my name was never written anywhere. So I kept on turning the pages until I saw my name written in big red letters.

I came back to Korea today. This month in America was wonderful but I missed my country. I went straight to the office to meet the members of the group that I would join. But I was shocked to see that cute eye-smile from one month ago. JIMIN. I suddenly realised that I had missed him too. What's strange is that I don't remember faces and names of people I've only seen once. He's doing something to me that I don't understand. So weird... But it kinda feels good. The other members were very kind and I hope that we''ll quickly become close.

"It was this day I fell in love with him. When he wakes up, I must tell him. I'll tell him that I love him over and over and over, so that he won't think of what happened today ever again."

And so, I fell asleep, hugging Jungkook's diary in my arms.

The next day

When I woke up, I was still hugging Jungkook's diary. I sat down, rubbed my eyes and went to the kitchen. I greeted everyone and sat down to eat, having the diary in my hand.

"What's that Jimin ?" asked Yoongi hyung.

"Oh, uhm... it's something." I replied, not wanting to tell him.

"You don't want to tell me ?" he said, looking offended.

"It's just that... it's private" I answered with an apologetic look.

He shrugged his shoulders and went on feeding himself. When we finished eating our breakfast, we all went one by one to shower and got dressed up to go to the hospital. The manager drove us there and immediately went back to I don't know where because I didn't listen. Namjoon and Jin went to ask where was Jungkook's room. I looked around and saw that it was 9am. I smiled a little, remembering that on our days off, Jungkook would never wake up before 9am. He just liked sleeping so much. But I didn't mind. Seeing him sleep was making me feel at peace. The hyungs came back and said it was room 1450. We got in the elevator and when we arrived in front of the room, it was as if time has stopped. I went to open the door. I turned the handle and pushed the door. I entered the room. When I found myself in front of Jungkook, I began to cry my eyes out. The other members came in and someone held me by my shoulders, trying to calm me. But I couldn't. I was hardly breathing, seeing my boyfriend in a hospital bed with so many tubes over his body, a bandage around his head and scratches all over his face and arms and hands. I was practically sure that he had some on his torso and legs too. When I came closer to the bed, I took his hand, gently, aware to not hurt him, even if he wasn't awake yet. I looked around me. Everyone was crying, more or less soundly, even Yoongi hyung and Namjoon hyung. I understood that Yoongi hyung was the one who tried to calm me down a few moments ago since he was standing where I was before coming beside the bed. I bent a little over Jungkook and kissed his hand, closing my eyes. I remained like that until I heard Taehyung gasp. I lifted my head to look at Jungkook. He was awake.

"J-Jungkookie ! A-are you a-awake ? Are you a-alright ?" I was trying to not cry too much, so I couldn't form sentences without hiccuping. He stared at me a few seconds.

"Excuse me but... who are you ?"

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