the beginning

Jungkook POV

It has been a few weeks since I have decided of getting over Jimin hyung. At first, I thought that it would be really difficult because he's always glued to me. But thanks to our manager, we are really busy with our upcoming comeback for our mini-album "Mood For Love pt.1". So because we are always practicing, we are very tired and hyung doesn't have time to be clingy with me. It is relieving but it kinda bothers me... I feel like something is off...Like a part of me is missing... But I mustn't think that way. I'm going to put my feelings aside and bury them deep inside of me and continue on practicing our title song's choreo.

It is very beautiful. Our choreography, I mean. Very artistic and full of emotions. Mainly love. Sad love. Like, even if it hurts you, you can't do anything but love this one and only person. Just like me with Jimin hyung...

"...Kookie ? Hey ! Kookie ! Are you alright ?" A sweet voice awakes me from my thoughts. I turn my head and see Jin hyung looking at me with his "umma" face.

"Y-yes... I'm alright hyung" I say while grabbing my bottle of water.

"Are you sure ? You messed up 2 steps of the choreo and you didn't seem focused. Is something bothering you ? Do you wanna talk ?" Asks Jin hyung while getting closer to me.

I want to say "Yes, hyung. You know, I love Jimin hyung but I decided to get over my feelings for him because I'm afraid it isn't the same for him and I don't want to be rejected and break our friendship. But it doesn't seem to work because I just keep thinking about him, every single thing reminds me of him". But instead, I reply with a smile

"Yes, I'm sure. I'm just a bit tired, we've been practicing for like 5 hours right now and I'd like to take a break. And nothing is bothering me."

"Do you really wanna play this game, Jeon Jungkook ?" Namjoon hyung surprises me with his deep voice coming from behind me. I turn around to look at him. He has an expression almost unreadable but I can see that he feels kind of sad and also like...pity ? I don't know... I should know him better by this time but I still have some problems with reading him (particularly) because since he is the leader, I think that he must've developed a "control my expressions because if I have bad news or problems, the members mustn't be aware of it" reflex. But instead of going on with my analyse of Namjoon-ie hyung's face, I said

"What game ?" with my best innocent face, even if I knew what he was talking about.

"Don't make this face like you really don't know what I am talking about maknae" he says with a menacing finger pointed at me (I would expect Jin hyung doing this because it is a "motherly" thing).

"I really don't know hyung" I reply with a confused face before running out to the other side of the practice room.

How does he know that ? But what does he know exactly ? The fact that I love Jimin hyung or the fact that I want to get over him ? Or both ? Does he know something I don't ? About Jimin hyung's feelings ? NO ! Jungkook, you can't think about Jimin right now. Breathe, relax... Okay... Everything's alright...

"Jungkook. What happened ? Are you okay ? You messed up the choreography... Is something wrong ?" asks the dance teacher.

"I'm okay, nothing's wrong. I'm sorry, I'm just a bit tired, that's all..." I reply a bit annoyed.

" Are you-"

" YES, I'M SURE ! WHY IS EVERYONE ASKING ME THE SAME THING ? CAN'T I MAKE A MISTAKE ?" I shout and everyone turns around to look at what is happening. I meet Jimin's eyes and flee from the practice room to lock myself up in the toilets. I sit there and start crying. I don't even know myself why I'm crying but tears just keep on rolling down my cheeks so I let them because it helps me feeling a bit better.

Then, I hear someone knocking at the door and saying with a really sweet voice

" Jungkook... Open the door please..."

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