Back To Reality

Nancy's POV

Everything is falling apart! Jonah made me lose every single thing I had since I met him - my dignity, my freedom, my happiness... Even my poor baby... I'm always so tired and sad I can't even face her anymore, and it hurts me so much to see her beautiful face ruined by all this bullshit. I'm so sorry I dragged her into my messy life, maybe I should've got an abortion, but I loved her so much that I couldn't bear the thought of losing her before I even met her...

"That's... That's just my fault!"

As I let those words leave my mouth, I just can't hold all this shit inside me, and I start crying as I cover my face with my hands so nobody who'd enter in this room would see me like this... I'm ashamed of crying, I've always been. I consider crying a way to express weakness, and I don't want to be weak, but I just can't take this anymore... And I'm ashamed of this more than anything else. I lost control over my life and I have no idea how to gain it back.

"Come here right now, idiot!" Jonah yells from the kitchen.

I immediately stand up and wipe my tears as I hear him. I have to go and see what this motherfucker wants now before Sam hears him too. I don't want her to get involved in this mess. That's only about me and Jonah, my poor baby is not at fault at all. Everything that happened is because of me, and now I must bear the consequences.

I take a deep breath and pull the doorknob, heading to the kitchen, as I try as much as I can not cry.

"There you are, bitch!" I didn't even enter the kitchen before I heard him yelling at me.

"Can you be a little bit quieter, please? I don't want Samantha to hear us..." I bite back completely fed up with his shit.

"Do you think I give a single **** on your idiot daughter?" He says with his voice full of disgust and disdain.

"Don't talk about her like that! This shit in only between us. I'm the only one you hate, don't involve her in this!" I beg, yet I don't give up on my irritated tone.

"Haha... Alright. I didn't want you to come here 'cause I wanted to talk shit about Samantha, though. That was just a bonus..." He says as a disgusting grin appears on his face. ****, I so want to punch him now... His rudeness towards my little Sammie makes me want to kill him but God knows I can't...

I'm starting to get a little scared of what he's about to say next, due to his grin and the way he said that, though.

"Actually..." He lets this word escape his mouth, then he starts staring at me, and that makes me shiver. For a few moments, we just stay in complete silence, as I watch his face become more and more angry, until he breaks this silence, hitting the counter with his fist.

"I fucking told you to start cooking four hours ago, *****!"

"I... I..." I keep on babbling for a few moments. I had no idea what to say anymore. He scared the hell out of me and I was afraid he's going to hit me again...

"What? You what? I'm hungry! Do something useful for the first time in your life instead of slacking all day!"

"I'm not slacking at all! I'm working my *** off every day with no one to help me, just to make you stop commenting about everything!" I finally give up and throw all my possible patience on the window as I yell back at him.

I couldn't hold everything in myself anymore. And the shit he has just said didn't help at all, but as soon as I stop, I wish I never said those things...

"Uh-huh... Very well then. I'm sorry..." He says in a calm tone, coming close to me.

"W-what?"

"I'm sorry I married such trash like you that can't do anything by herself. Do I need to remind you again that now you're under my roof and you can either do whatever I want, whenever I want, or you can start searching for a new home?" He starts yelling again as he slaps me.

After that, I simply froze. I didn't know what to say, what to do, I just... I couldn't do anything. The thought that my little Sam would be homeless killed me. Because I knew so damn well that he hates her, and he wouldn't allow her to stay here if I left. I didn't care about myself so much, but I never wanted Sammie to go through any of this and I never will...

After a few moments, I get back to reality as I feel his hands on my throat.

"Am I clear, bitch?" He says full of anger, as he tightens the space between his hands and my throat.

"Y-y-yes". I barely manage to say that using the last portion of air I had left.

"Good. Now do what I said!" He yells as he throws me on the floor.

"Ah!" I involuntarily gasp as my body meets the floor.

"That's what you get for 'standing up for yourself' stupid woman. Don't try to do that again with me, this was just a warning."

Jonah says as he turns around and leaves the kitchen, then a few moments later I hear the front door open and close back. Shit! He's going to get drunk again! Ugh, at least I hope he won't also use drugs this time...

~ Halifax, Canada - May 2019 ~

Samantha's POV

(Present time)

So, basically, that's my story. This is everything that has happened so far. And maybe you're wondering how do I know all of this? Well, Veronica, my grandma, used to tell me about these during my childhood, since I always asked my mom about how her and "dad" met, but she always refused to talk about that. Unfortunately, she died a few years ago... And I had no one to lean on anymore.

That, of course, until Alice and I met! As I promised, I'll tell you more about our past together when the time is right, but that time is not this time, so I'll have to keep this a mystery for a while, I hope you don't mind. Anyway, the only thing you need to know for now is that Ali is basically the last thing in this world that gives me hope, and I have literally no idea what I'd do or where I'd be now without her...

Skipping that though, unfortunately, the photoshoot for our school album is not over yet, and it's my turn. To sum everything up in one word, shit.

"Stop worrying, Sam! Everything will be alright." Her calm and friendly voice brings me back from the world of my vivid thoughts.

"Wait, was I thinking out loud again?" I sigh disappointed in myself as always...

"All this time, baby!" Alice starts laughing at me.

"Ouch... Why didn't you tell me something then, Al?" I bite back.

"Sorry, I just wanted to see where this leads..."

"See where this leads? It's not like you don't know the whole story already..." I roll my eyes at her cheap excuse.

"Yes, but you're a great story-teller."

I must admit, that comment made me blush and want to laugh at the same time, but I retained both these feelings.

"Whatever. Can I ask you something?" I try to change the subject a little.

"Sure."

"Can you kill me before it's my turn, please?" I say lightly slapping my face.

Alice rolls her eyes and crosses her arms over her chest, as a sarcastic reaction to my request.

"Why are you so stressed after all? It's not like the photographer will eat you..."

"Ugh... Come here, ok?" Saying that she pulls me in a tight hug, then whispers in my ear - "It's going to be alright, I promise."

"But, actually, what are you afraid of, Samantha? Say it out loud, maybe that will help..."

"T-that I look like a monster. That everybody will hate me and will want to puke when they see my photo just because I can't even smile anymore?" I don't even get to finish my sentence, I'm already feeling the hot tears filling my eyes.

"Oh, dear, that's not true at all! You're so beautiful that sometimes it hurts to look at you, and nobody will ever hate you..."

"But..." I try to bring another argument to her comment, but she immediately stops me.

"No buts! You're going to wipe away your tears, build up your confidence, go there and have the best photo of the whole album!" Wow... She said that with such an inspirational tone as she pulled out of our hug, shaking me to give me a boost of luck and confidence.

"Oh, God... Are we really doing this, Alice?" I sigh again in a giggly tone.

"No, you're doing this! And you're going to do an amazing job, believe me!"

Yeah... Well, in that moment, I swear there was nothing in this world that I could want less to hear...

"Ugh, alright. Let's just get over with this..." Is the only thing I managed to get out of my mouth as Alice and I headed back to the main entrance where the photoshoot was taking place.

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