Memories...

"Alright, class, smiiiiile!"

"Smile!" she says, but little does she think that maybe, just maybe, some people might not have that ability anymore...

Actually, no. Who the heck am I to disagree with my class master!? I mean, everyone can smile, right? And they should even smile, it's a damn photo, you're supposed to smile!

Actually, wait! I can't believe I didn't introduce myself yet... Geez, I git a bit too caught up in this so-called "little story"... Anyways, I'm Samantha May. I'm 16 years old and I live in Halifax, Canada. There aren't many things I can tell you about me... I'm pretty shy and an introvert, I don't really have friends, people usually avoid me... Well, expect Alice Moore, my only friend in this whole world and the only person I can lean on...

I know Ali will never leave my side, even if everyone tries to tear us apart. They all think we don't match at all, and I cannot contradict them, her and I are coming from opposite worlds!

I never thought someone like Al would even want to share the same air with me! Ever since I know her, she's been the queen bee of our school, and I've always been the... Well, the quiet nerd. But one day, an idiot was bullying me and she saw it, but instead of encouraging him, she stood up for me... We became best friends ever since...

Anyway, I promise I'll tell you more about mine and Alice's story in the future, but now I want to get back to what I was saying because if I don't, nothing will make sense.

So, I know all these things I said so far have no meaning at all, but let's get back to the first paragraph where I said that some people may not have the ability to smile anymore. Do you remember that? Alright, now let me explain why I said that and what I meant. But, for my explanation, I will need to tell you a pretty long story, which starts even longer ago... About 17 years ago...

<< Rewind <<

~ London, U.K. - March 2002 ~

Nancy's point of view

(Nancy is Samantha's mother)

"Oh my God! No! I can't believe this and I don't want to either!" I scream completely terrorized by the image in front of me.

The longer I kept starring at that stupid test, the more I understood this is real. I... I am... No! I'm not going to say this.

"Ugh... How could such a thing happen!? And... Why?"

I stood there, on the bathroom floor, looking at those two lines for what seemed like hours, praying to wake up from this horrible nightmare, but as the clock kept ticking and the minutes passed, I slowly realized this is not a dream. This is the reality. The cruel reality. Taking a deep breath, I try to pick myself up, wipe my tears and think of something I could do about this, but nothing seems to work. My legs are numb and I can barely stand up, I just can't stop crying and none of the things I think of work at all...

A child wasn't such a bad thing in my opinion. I mean, I've always wanted one and I guess it's about damn time I get one! I'm freaking 34! I won't be able to give birth forever... Anyway, the reason all these tears that keep running on my cheeks aren't happy tears is him. Drake Lander - The only person I love, but also the only person I hate.

Drake has never wanted kids. He made sure I understood that anytime I mentioned this topic... But I just don't understand why... Maybe he's afraid a child will come between him and his success? Maybe he's afraid he'll lose all his money? Maybe it's a problem from his past? I don't know about that, he's never told me about this. I can only suppose, but now I don't have the time for that... It's about 4 o'clock, he'll come back home in a couple of hours and I just can't face him now...

"God, how could I be this stupid!? " I scream as loud as I can, starting to cry again and letting all my demons get out of me. But, actually, no! NO!! I'm not mad at me, I'm mad at... Him! Drake is the reason for all this bullshit! If he wouldn't be such a heartless creep and would want to have kids with the woman he loves, as he calls me, I wouldn't be here, sitting on a bathroom floor and crying for hours! I would be talking to him and enjoying every second! But he's the one who ruined everything, not me...

As I begin to feel strong again, I stand up and throw that idiot pregnancy test on the other side of the room and watch it break into a million pieces, with no regret at all.

I'm not going to be his pet forever. I want to live my own life and that's what I'm going to do! Drake and I have been together since I was 23, and I've always been his pet ever since! But now I'm done! I'm a grown-up woman and I need nobody to tell me what to do and how. From now on, I'm going to make decisions for myself and I decide to have this baby, no matter what that moron says!

If he doesn't want to help me raise this child, then so be it! I don't need him! I can have this baby on my own and I need nobody to help me or to advise me. And I don't need to hear his opinion about this either! He brought this over himself and I'm not tolerating this anymore! I made my decision and I'm not going back.

I know what to do and I don't regret anything. Maybe we were never meant to be, and when it's not meant to be, nothing works no matter how hard you try. I guess it was only a matter of time for me to realize that Drake and I were never good for each other, but I can't believe it took me so long... But now I know, and this is the end of us.

I run out of the bathroom straight to our bedroom. I open the closet door and pick up a huge suitcase, then I start throwing clothes in it, then I pack up everything else I need along with my passport and head to the front door. Once I get there, I take a deep breath and look at my watch.

"5 pm. I have one more hour to leave until he gets here." I say before placing my hand on the doorknob. But as I start pulling it, all of a sudden, I stop.

I don't love Drake anymore and I indeed want to have nothing to do with him no more, but I just can't help thinking of how many memories I have since I moved here with him, and also all the memories I have since I met him... Our first kiss, our first date, the first time he told me he loved me... Our first everything together...

Taking a very deep breath, I clear all these thoughts from my head until I do something I'll regret, pull the doorknob and leave this house for good. I'm going to start a new life and raise my little baby without him, somewhere I know he'll never find me: Halifax, here I come!

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