Before The Change.

"Is it too late for a happy ending?"

¿¿¿:"Yes."

"Is this the only way to restart?"

¿¿¿: "If you die now. All of your worries, fears, and problems will be gone."

"Even if I do die those problems will never be solved if I just keep running away and hiding, so what's the point of running if they always follow. If I die they'll be a burden and it will be to late for me to fix them. It'll make a bigger problem because some else will have to carry and solve the burden that I couldn't fix and if they do solve that problem I'll look back and realize that I didn't have to runaway."

¿¿¿:"But what if you can't find a way to solve them yourself? Those problems that you have were caused by other people. People like you. Humans just like you. No one will ever love you. No one will ever like you. You were a mistake. You weren't met to be born. You are a accident. You weren't ready to be in the world yet. This is what happens to mistakes like you who come into this world to early. They face reality and deny the truth."

"Then how come mistakes like me aren't forgiven? I was a accident. I should be forgiven, but instead I was forgotten. I was hated for being me. Now look at me. I'm such a dramatic little shit. Talking to myself."

¿¿¿:" This isn't your fault. It's the humans fault. They THINK, but they don't know. They assume who we are without realizing it. They are the problem. You'll always be a mistake because that is what you are. You are not needed, so you are wanted. Like your father and brother. They used you. They used you for there own good. They used your 8 year old precious little body for money and there own good. You should be happy. That atleast someone wanted you. Like your mother. She tried to fix you. She would beat you for disobeying her. For telling you how GAY you are. She tried to help you, but instead you denied. She set you up for marriage, but what did you do? You became abusive and violent. You know what they say. Like Father. Like Son."

"I-It wasn't my fault... I didn't want her in my life. She was all over me. I hated her. She disgusted me. What was the point?! She was with other guys too. She-She-"

¿¿¿:" Oh! There you again with your anger. What are you going to do? Rape someone like your father did to you? To relieve the stress? To feel better from someone else's pain? Nope. You would either punch holes in your wall, argue with your mother, or beat your wife. EXACTLY like your father did. Your father loved your wonderful body, but what about your brother? He used you. He sold you away to different people for money. That one thing that rules earth. Money. What most people love. Don't forget your bullies and ex. The ones who betrayed you for fame. Another thing people would love to have. Those bullies were your friends, but they betrayed you because they didn't want to be friends with a loser like you, so they decided to choose fame over friendship while your ex just played you like everyone else did. What else could go wrong in your life? Oh, silly me. How could I forget? You almost experienced death because of your bullies beat the living **** out of you. One of them even had a knife. They almost killed you and that was fucking last week. Just give up. What are you even waiting for? A miracle? You've never had one and you never will. You've got a chair and rope. Do it. It's the closest you'll ever get to a miracle anyway. Stop trying. You've waited for so long. Sometimes it better to give up and now is probably the time."

"You're... You're right... I guess you're right... If I die. No one will notice. They'll forget I ever existed. That's actually pretty funny, right? I guess this is it."

He Didn't Know That Mistakes Like Him Are Actually Suppose To Happen.

"Sometimes Life Is Hard, But The Hardship Is Measured By The Mind, So We Should Not Flee The Challenges We Face. For With The Challenges In Life, Discretion Should Be Used."

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