Beautiful Mess

Night

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Mom please , m begging u stop this marriage, i don't want to marry him. He is freaking 10 years older then me - i said while crying in my mom's embrace

Honey, I know it's hard for u, but we only made a good decision for you - my mom said while ceasing my back

Mom plzz- I start crying more hard

Shhh don't cry, it hurt to see my daughter crying - my mom said in breaking voice

You know m also forced to marry your dad but see we love each other, right? She said to my while backing off

But mom he is 10 years older than me how can u both do this to me - is said in broken voice

Tears aren't stop falling from my eyes

See lily (her mom come her lily, her real name is Lilith) love can change everything. You can change him if u want - she said while crassing my cheeks

How can I change a devil, a monster into a good person ? . He is an asshole, I don't want to marry him can't you see how he treats me? He treats me like m his property like he own me - my voice start breaking and tears start falling from my eyes

Lily, parents know how to keep their child safe, Your dad is mafia which means he has a lot of enemies who can harm you. We can fail to protect you, but he can't. Now stop crying and take a warm bath it can help u to relax - she said and gave me warm smile before heading off from my room

* I sighed *

I'm a mess, my whole life is mess (my eyes again filled with tears) I can't imagine my own parents wants me to marry a man who is 10 years older than me.

* I made my way to bathroom to take a warm shower, this is the only thing which can relax my mind *

*After 45 mins*

*after I take shower I changed into some comfortable clothes and made my way to bed. I lay down on my bed and stare at ceiling*

Wow lily, you have never imagined your life will become like this-i said to myself and chuckled

*tears again filled in my eyes*

I feel pathetic for being this weak, wish I have never born in mafia family, wish I could escape, wish I can stand for myself but this man he, he messed up my whole life, I will never forgive you Kim Taehyung, NEVER

* and like this I cried whole night*

* Next morning *

* my eyes opened, I made my way to the mirror and touched the dry tears on my face from the last night*

*signed*

I heard mom shouting my name from downstairs

Lily come and have breakfast - my mom said

Coming - I shouted back

let's take a shower, crying won't help- I said to myself

*after taking shower*

I changed into this

*I went downstairs *

good morning mom and dad - i said in cold voice