Affection

Today I’m meeting up with Takemichi and Mitsuya just so we can hang out. Mitsuya rides to my house and I ride with him to Takemichi’s house. We all head out to get some lunch and get some ramen.

“Oh my ******* god Chifuyu! You need to eat something!” Mitsuya shouts. I look at him with shock and roll my eyes.

“It’s not my fault I can’t eat anything. I can’t sleep since every time I close my eyes I see Baji dying inside my ******* arms!” I yell. I grab my things and walk off but hear someone follow me.

“Chifuyu! Come back!” Takemichi yells. Takemichi looks at me with tears in his eyes and grabs my hand. “You need to take care of yourself! I’ll always be here for you!” Takemichi cries. I hug Takemichi and cry in his arms.

“I’m sorry Chifuyu it’s all my fault!” He says. “I could’ve saved him but I couldn’t! I’ll find a way to bring him back I promise!” He cries. I look at him but why would he even say something like that he’s gone.

"I have to go Chifuyu but stay here until Mitsuya comes okay?" He says. I nod and wait as Mitsuya runs to me. Mitsuya then hugs me and cries.

"I'm sorry I couldn't save him but just remember I love you so fudging much!" He says. I look at him and realize how f handsome he is. I ignore the thought of being with him though since I could never love anyone but Baji. I then walk to my motorcycle and get on and ride to my house.

I walk into the house and flop onto my bed and pulled the covers over my head. I felt Mitsuya get in also and he puts his arms around my waist. I then grab some of my mangas and read them with him for the next few hours. After finishing a couple of volumes I get out of bed and make some food. Mitsuya comes from my room and sits on the couch and turns on the tv. After making some ramen I put it into two bowls and give one to Mitsuya. After I give him his ramen he eats it slowly watching me as if I’m going to cry again but I watch the tv and eat my food.

“That was good Chifuyu!” Mitsuya said. I look at him and see he’s smiling brightly at me. I can’t stop but blush at his handsome face.

“Umm thanks, Mitsuya! I normally make it when I’m tired but need to eat!” I say. I carry his bowl out of the room and wash the dishes while he watches the tv. After finishing the dishes I look and see him staring intently at me. "W-why are you looking at me!" I yell. I feel my face heat up and hide my face so he can't see me blushing.

"I was staring at you since I was waiting for you to sit back down," He says. I swear he's going to be the death of me. I walk back to the couch and sit down and exhale. I feel Mitsuya's eyes on me but I can't help but look at him. The second I look at him he smiles at me. "Will you stop staring at me!!" I yell. I feel myself heat up but can't stop but look back at him once more.

"Why? I think you have a nice face! I can't stop myself from staring at you!!' He says. I glare at him and walk to my room. When I hear him follow me I have the urge to hurt him! He looks at me as I flop onto the bed and yell. I wait for him to come over or something but he just stands there like he won't move from the place he's standing from even if someone kills him for it. I then invite him over to sit with me on my bed and he sits down. He looks at me and holds my hand.

"Why are you so affectionate towards me!!" I yell. He looks at me with shock and I look back at him. "Since I've always wanted to be with you!" He answers. I can't help but blush at the words he said. "You really mean it?" I ask. He looks at me and just stares. I know I like him but I can't just move on from Baji. I look at Mitsuya and remove my hand from his.

Then I feel it. I start crying like the day Baji died. I realized that I was starting to love someone else so quickly, I wanted to hurt myself so much for moving on just like that. Mitsuya leaves and I keep on crying. I cry for hours until I hear my house door open. I try to stop myself from crying more but when I see that it isn't my mom but it's Takemichi I let it all out.

"Shh, it's going to be okay Chifuyu," Takemichi whispers in my ear. Takemichi is petting my hair and holding me as I cry but I just want to be alone. "I'm right here okay?" Takemichi says. The thing about Takemichi is that he is there for me more than Mitsuya has ever been.

"Takemichi I'm better now but I just need to avoid Mitsuya!" I say. Takemichi looks at me with confusion and I explain what had happened.

"Chifuyu you shouldn't avoid him though! He's been through just as much as you!" Takemichi says. He looks at me with disappointment but I then tell him about Baji's relationship with him.

"But I was scared that I would move on from Baji so quickly!! I can't just move on like that! I love Mitsuya but it's like telling you to move on from Hina after she dies! I want Baji back so badly!" I yell. I cry but also feel the urge to jump off the roof and meet with Baji again.

"I'm sorry Chifuyu! But like I said you really can't avoid Mitsuya or else he'll be sad!! You do know he's liked you since you joined Toman! I know you joined for Baji but you need to realize that he still loves you even if you love Baji still!! I'm on your side, I know you don't want to move on from Baji but you need to tell Mitsuya you love Baji!" Takemichi yells.

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