preface

"Talk to me. How're you feeling these days," Taehyung asked suddenly, catching you off guard.

"Why do you ask?"

"I just realized I haven't even been there for you at all. Not since you found out about... you know," he says quietly.

"It's been my turn to take care of you, Tae. It's okay," you reassured him.

"But Y/N, you didn't answer the question. How are you feeling?" he pressed. However, you didn't want to confront your feelings, much less confess them to him. You didn't want to make him feel worse. You didn't now what him to know that you felt sad again, and it was because of him.

"Y/N?"

"I'm okay," you said simply.

"No, you aren't. Why are you lying? I thought we were past lying," he seemd upset then, hurt contorting his face.

"I don't want you to be worrying about me. You have enough to deal with right now," you insisted, taking your eyes off of him. You didn't want to see his sad expressions any longer.

"Is there a reason I should be worried?" he exclaimed, worry and anxiety lining his voice .

"That's not what I meant."

"What did you mean then, Y/N? Hey, look at me," Taehyung said angrily now, obviously growing frustrated with your lack of meaningful replies.

You shifted your eyes back up at him, realizing that he looked like he was yet again about to cry. Great.

"It's because of me, isn't it?" he whispered, finally putting all of the pieces together. You nodded curtly, unable to form a decent response.

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Please read this in its entirety:

This is an AU. Tae is not apart of Bangtan; Bangtan does not exist. However, there may be appearances from other members from time to time.

In this story, Tae has an older brother rather than a younger one. Please don't leave me a comment correcting me on small things like this, as I likely wrote them this way on purpose for the story to work.

This story does deal with some themes of physical illness and death; it's not like crazy intense or anything. if i feel that maybe a chapter should have a warning, there will be one at the beginning of it.

There is no update schedule for this book, however I will try to be as prompt as I can. My Min Yoongi x Reader (Bad For Me) is already completed at 60,000 words if you'd like something to read in the meantime.

Thank you so much for clicking and deciding to read this book!! I really appreciate all of the support I've gotten on my previous works, and this one as well. Below is the reading playlist for this story, compiled of songs that I either listened to while writing, or that I think compliment the story. Make a playlist and listen along if you'd like, or play whatever song is embedded into the chapters as I post them. Or don't listen at all; it's completely up to you :D

reading playlist:

the beach - the neighbourhood

do it, try it- m83

come a little closer- cage the elephant

shooting the moon- ok go

speak up- pop etc

sirens- tom odell

thieves- the beach

bloom- the paper kites

isle of flightless birds- twenty one pilots

release- imagine dragons

falling- opia