Chapter 4

In order to release your hand right now

I gotta let you know that I need to let you go

Hard to say goodbye

But I can't run

I'm ready to let go

Taehyung's pov

Tomorrow we're leaving for the trip and it's 4 am and we're getting ready. The school secretary told me that the roommates at the hotel will be the ones stationed at the school, so I would be rooming with that monster. We leave at 7 am but today I got up early because the monster woke me up but strangely he didn't offend me or beat me up, weird thing.

Anyway, after he leaves Jungkook enters with a beautiful mask with a bunny designed on it and two hundred gifts and a mask similar to his.

I have a bad feeling and I'm afraid it's going to come true, please don't let that be what I'm thinking because if it is I'll die.

Jungkook's pov

I have to get out of his life with this fake side of me. If he gets too attached, it might happen that when he knows the truth he will throw me out of his life, although I think he will do that anyway. I have to be able to change my character a little, but I'm afraid that today he will ask me to show my face and get to know myself, but as soon as I take off the mask he will tell me to leave and I don't want that. So I take courage anyway and go there with a couple of presents. As soon as I enter he first smiles but then seeing me with those wrapped boxes his smile changes.

I know that he is self-harming because I have just seen him and I don't want him to do that so I have already come up with a plan.

Jk - hey, how are you Taetae? - I asked smiling at him

Tae - good! - he replied but I knew something was wrong with his mood

Jk - I had to tell you something and that's why I came here. So I'm leaving today. I changed my house and country so I'm going there to study but I promise that one day I will come back here to see you.

Tae - oh I didn't expect that, anyway I hope you're happy. Don't worry even if you don't manage to visit me, it's the same. - he said with a trembling voice

Jk - Here as a souvenir I got you some little presents, they're not much but I hope you like them and as the last thing I got you one of my favourite masks. Keep it so that when I return, I can find you more easily. - I said trying to lift up his mood a little

Tae - thank you, you shouldn't have...So is it goodbye? -

Jk - well I guess not, because after all it's only a "Goodbye and see you soon" so see you soon. - I said smiling a little bit

Tae - see you soon - he said lowering his head sadly

I left the room to change and take off my mask. It hurt because I knew he was in pain and yet he managed to hide it. At least he didn't ask me to show my face or I would have died.

Taehyung's pov

My instinct had come true. The world had collapsed on me. My whole world had been shattered and crushed into a thousand pieces. My heart was in a huge claw that was slowly and painfully crushing and killing it. I didn't want Jungkook to leave, I didn't want to be alone with that monster. I was afraid, so afraid, but I had no one to protect me. The only one who had really done it was Jungkook, not that monster whose name I don't even know and don't even want to know, it was better that way.

After picking up the presents and my magic pain relief box, I went to the bathroom and locked myself inside. I unwrapped the presents one by one and cut each box. Considering that there were 5 boxes 5 deep cuts. At the end I picked everything up to leave the bathroom but as soon as I unlocked the door my head spun around like there was no tomorrow, I fell to the floor and then black...

Jungkook's pov

After changing, I went straight to my room and Taehyung wasn't there and I started mentally cursing and looking for him like a desperate man. I went into the bathroom and what I saw literally killed me inside. I panicked and tried to lift taetae up to his bed and medicate him. Having done a medical course there was no need to call anyone. I took some bandages and bandaged his arms. I was torn by what I had seen and in a way it was my fault but what I did was necessary.

After a while he woke up and I was there by his side, I was more helpful and gentle, but not too much so that he wouldn't suspect anything. I had taken him some food, so I handed him some food.

Jk - hey eat, you need to get your strength back, the school nurse told me and she left you some medicine, first eat and then I'll tell you how to take it -

Tae - I'm not hungry, thank you anyway and I won't take any medication, you can go and don't worry about me -

Jk - Who' s worried about you, come on don't make a fuss and eat - i replied

Tae - I TOLD YOU I'M NOT HUNGRY, DO YOU HEAR OR ARE YOU DEAF? I'M NOT EATING, UNDERSTAND? - he shouted and at that moment my worst side instinctively woke up and I slapped him\, but I regretted it soon after.

Jk - eat! - I said coldly and Taehyung took some food and sat on the bed facing away from me, what a child - and I'll take this one\, thank you. you better keep doing what I tell you if you don't want the headmaster to know about this one. -

I took his box of razor blades and brought it up to give it to very good hands, that is Yoongi's, I'll ask him not to destroy it but to keep it.

Taehyung tried to argue but said nothing, he just continued eating in silence.

I returned after handing the box to Yoongi and found Taehyung intent on reading a book. It was called 'Sophie on the Rooftops of Paris' or something similar, but I excused myself and took the bag of medicines I had taken from the school nurse.

I told him how he should take the medication and he listened to me in silence, I was sure he would never take it so I told him I would give it to him at the right time. I told him to follow me and I took him to the school canteen and we both had our dinner. We ate, although I had to force Taehyung to eat because he needed to regain his strength and was too weak at the moment.

After dinner, we went back to our room and I gave him his medication, he changed his clothes and fell asleep like an angel, I went to take a relaxing shower, and when I got back to my room, Taetae was already asleep, so I sat at the bottom of his bed and watched him like a fool.

From now, I have two weeks to try to understand Taehyung.

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