Chapter 4 ~ Reform ~

•♡ Hira's Pov •♡

"I'm sorry." Two words, two easy light words yet they were so hard to utter.

Cara stood there, confused. Expected.

All the time she suffered, it was because of me yet she never knew. I never revealed myself to her.

My eyes coordinated with hers and I took a closer take at her. She was so effortlessly beautiful. So innocent and naive-like.

She had beautiful emerald like green eyes and roasy cheeks with a pale complexion. She was tall, perhaps about 5'9; two inches taller than me.

"I'm..." I began to explain who i am.

Except I didn't know how to continue it. Who the hell am i? Her bf's ex-wife? Her abuser? Who?

I felt like such an idiot just standing there, cutting back on my words.

I gulped, "You dont know me, but I know you. I- I used to be an anti-fan of yours but now i am no longer. I realised you're not someone one should hate but love."

It felt like my eyes were glistening just looking at her trying to plead for forgiveness.

"-- so forgive me for hating you and doing hateful stuff to you."

She seemed very taken aback, it almost felt like she was freaking out and internally asking herself 'OK?'

After a few seconds she began to speak, "Um- oh. That's, that's fine. Thank you?"

I smile with my eyes closed, tillting my head to the side I say, "Thank you!"

I then proceed to place a gift in her hand, with another smile and a little hug I turn on my heels.

My eyes water, my emotions broiling and my hands cold-the weather seemed merciless that night.

And that was it.

Thats all it took. To just say sorry. To just sincerely be happy for her.

I felt peace, rest, serenity.

This feeling was beautiful.

I wanted to feel like that always all the time.

After that i kept no contact with anyone, nor the twins or the brothers or the parents. I knew they all hated me. For The things i did. For how i turned out. But it was fine because i was no longer going to be that person; i was changing, to be a better person.

Noah.... never contacted me after our divorce. consolidation. I convinced myself that I didn't love him anymore, that my feelings just magically disappeared.

But when I couldn't stop my hands from writing him a letter to inform I'm going abroad again even thoigh i knew he wouldn’t read it, I knew that I still loved him. And maybe, i'll always love him. Always.

December passed.

January passed.

February passed.

March passed.

April passed.

May passed.

June passed.

July passed.

August passed.

September passed.

October passed.

November passd.

And the cycle repeated for the next 4 years.

I made myself busy with education to become a lawyer: I always wanted to be one because of granna. She was my role model. I would always watch her court case on tv and everytime she'd win.

Angela Adams, a world-renowned lawyer. I wanted to be just like her.

I wanted to make her proud. But im glad she's not here with us, she didnt have to see the ugly side of me.

The Adams family owned a world-renowned law firm, they were the best in the field.

I may no longer have a chance to work there but at least i can fullfil my dreams.

After completing my degree, I focused on finding a job which wasn't hard since I already had alot of previous experience.

For the next 2 years I worked in the same job, our small firm was quickly gaining recognition and increasing in size.

I had re-started my whole life. Everything changed, refreshed. I had almost forgotten untill one day I was sitting and got a phone call.

From Nate, Noahs older brother.

I wanted to decline it, but I didn't have any reason to.

But i wish i had, just when my life had took a pivoting point, it took a u-turn to my absolute demise.

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