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I Want To Live A Good Life

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I Want To Live A Good Life

(Chapter 1) Life

Something unforgivable happened. All the important people in my life are dead.

I can see flesh blood everywhere, no one would have thought that this hell like place was once full of laughter.

My home, my sanctuary, no one would believe that this is the house of the Black Astronomy, the centre of Madorumun.

The puppy, who always welcomed me whenever I went through the door, is already dead with its belly exposed at the threshold of the door.

Kyung, a servant who was a little lacking but the most sincere, was also lying on the floor together with the firewood that he had cut.

And the nanny, who I love the most.

The most loyal person I’ve ever known. Who raised me like a real daughter, ever since I was a baby, who originally comes from the side of my mom’s family.

“……”

She died with her eyes wide open.

I approached her and slowly closed her eyes.

As if knowing that it was me who did it, a small smile appeared on her face.

“Ah, Ara, I’m…”

“!”

‘I thought that everyone was dead.’

I immediately approached the spot from where the sound came from, and what I saw was our butler, my nanny’s husband. Who was leaning against the wall, soaked in blood and barely breathing.

“Butler······.”

His face was full of resentment, as if he was blaming me.

But it’s okay, since everyone here died because of me. That’s why I feel comfortable blaming myself for everything that has happened…

“Sir, Aran is here. If you want to say something, please do.”

“Our baby…”

The butler’s bloody hand gripped my face.

“Even for a while, I’m happy to be able to take care of you, baby…”

Mr. Butler coughed up and vomited blood, then he suddenly collapsed without him finishing his words. As I stared blankly at his face, as he left a bloodstain on my face, I asked myself.

‘Have I been happy?’

“Yes, I was very happy.”

But now, those happy days are gone and people died horribly as if they were being insulted, and I was the only one left behind.

Again me, alone. Even in this life.

“········”

After my mother died while giving birth to me, my father immediately found a new lover.

To a stepmother, who always thinks of me as a thorn in her eyes.

But being bullied is a story from when I was younger. Gradually as I grew up, I became conscious and started to fight back, so I never dreamt of her being my mother, but the funny thing is It never came to me that she would set me up to be killed.

From then on, if I had an argument, I wouldn’t just let it go.

That’s when I started a splendid life.

I’m a beautiful and talented maiden, enough to be called the mechanism of heaven and earth. It’s a natural quality that my stepmother could not take away from me, no matter how much she hated me.

I am immersed in luxury, pleasure, and adoration, with the proper combination of these two qualities.

Around that time, I didn’t even care about my stepmother, who regarded me as a thorn in her eyes.

Then I died, at the age of twenty-two.

‘…. But fortunately, I came back to life.’

At that time, I reincarnated at the age of six years old.

Naturally, I began to think about how to get my revenge on my stepmother, who killed me in my previous life and continued to harass me in this new life.

But what’s going on?

Something incredible happened.

Because of my sweet nanny, my dreams of taking revenge, gently melted away.

And then I thought that, It wouldn’t be a bad thing to live a simple life.

I don’t have my favourite ornaments, no fancy rooms, nor pretty things, and then it hit me that maybe, I could choose this simple life and be happy nonetheless.

And then I’ve come to a decision to completely end my desire for revenge. It’s because I thought that if I stepped back in moderation, and just watched from the sidelines, no one would think of touching me first.

I believed that this small amount of happiness would be sufficient for me to protect it with my own hands.

I had to.

‘I really had to do it…’

In front of my people who were torn to pieces, I realized later that It was my biggest mistake.

“········”

I stood up quietly in front of a bloodstain and the disastrous death.

As I crossed over the threshold with my feet and slowly closed the door of this simple and happy house with my own hands.

This house became a permanent closed tomb from the people I considered as my family.

‘I know that you’ll be worried, nanny, but I’m sorry.’

Naturally, no one answered me back, because this house has now become a grave.

The tomb of the people who had once provided me a home, is now permanently closed.

‘If you want to stop me, then please come back from afterlife.’