Chapter 2

                           Twinkle, as soon as I opened my eyes, I was in grief.

‘Ugh, this is so uncomfortable!’

Unfortunately, at this point being trapped inside of a not-yet-developed body was too familiar.

Was it also like this when I woke up in my second life…?

As I licked my lips with anxiety, the cry of a newborn baby faintly leaked out.

“Uuung….”

The grayed out vision slowly became clearer. I glared at the clearly visible ceiling and once again licked my lips.

Was I a baby again?

The situation this time around was worse.

I felt so hungry and cold.

I couldn’t even make a crying sound.

I slowly blinked and looked next to me, there I saw a woman who had her eyes closed, she was covered with blood.

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‘Aah, this world is rotten.’

What was God, and what was a miracle?

You wouldn’t even be so harsh on a dog yet you had killed me, a human being, twice.

Shouldn’t things have gotten at least a bit better?

But such thoughts didn’t last long.

Because I wasn’t alone.

‘I have something else to do.’

The woman who I suspected had given birth to me was lying down at a weird angle.

For an unknown reason, I felt a sense of bitterness and bit my lips.

My condolences for the dead.

“Uu.”

But that’s just how it was.

What about me?

‘…This is like my second life, isn’t it?’

The feeling wasn’t that much different from my previous lives where I could see properly and think rationally despite the fact that I had just been born.

‘Maybe this is a buff obtained through reincarnation.’

Yet the body was just that of a baby.

A little baby whose head was so heavy that it couldn’t even be lifted.

My teeth were quivering.

‘Uu, you want me to do this again? Fucking babling! And pooping on diapers!’

I was trying to move my entire body, but soon after broke in cold sweat so just chose to relax instead.

I was quick to give up.

Wow, I was truly screwed. I’m sure this is worse than how it was in my second life.

It felt as if I had woken up in the body of a young child who couldn’t even properly cut a string.

The fragile body hadn’t even sucked on milk yet, therefore didn’t have the strength to crawl outside.

‘This is beyond imagination.’

To make matters even worse.

I could hear the sound of horse cries.

‘Wait. Was this… the stable?

Haha.

Thinking so, I smiled softly.

I think someone had placed a curse on me, that’s why it was like this.

Now, I was about to die as soon as I was born.

Don’t tell me, would being reincarnated in similar situations repeat over and over again…?

Just picturing the idea of having such terrible families again gave me goosebumps.

‘Uung’

Clomp, the sound of someone’s heavy footsteps could be heard.

Soon, there was the chilling sound of a door opening.

‘Who was it?’

While I was trying to look around, a shadow stood in front of me.

No, to be exact, that person looked down at the woman lying next to me.

So maybe it was in front of my third mother. (saying the shadow stood in front of the mother instead)

“…”

Perhaps thanks to the moonlight shining for a moment, the face of the man who was standing dimly in the dark became clearly reflected in my vision.

‘Oh?’

He was more handsome than I thought.

His eyes that were drenched from the rain were quite attractive, and he seemed to be in his early or mid 20’s.

The downside was that his expressionless face was as sharp as a blade.

Then my eyes met with the man who turned his eyes.

At that very moment, I almost forgot that I was a baby who could only say ‘uuung’ and that the man in front of me was the first person I had seen so far.

‘What the hell is he looking at?’

I could sense complicated emotions in his sharp gaze, but I couldn’t tell what was going on.

Instantly, the situation became uncomfortable.

Just why were you looking at me like that….?

Somehow through those eyes of his, I could tell who that man was.

And at the same time I came to a realisation.

That I would once again not get along with my father.

Because it was obvious that this man was my third father.

My eyes reflected through his pupils, and his own eyes were too similar to deny such a fact.

“You are.”

The lips of the man that seemed to be as hard as a stone suddenly moved.

The language was unfamiliar, and the pronunciation felt smooth like english.

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‘!’

At that moment, a bloody pain, that felt as if my head was being split open, pierced through the top of my head.

The pain was so unbearable that it made me want to immediately burst into tears.

I frowned, wondering whether or not the man could understand the me who was trembling with partly closed eyes.

‘…?’

When the long lasting pain finally became a bit bearable I was surprised to see the man looking down at me very closely with his one knee bent.

Soon, there was movement and the cloth that used to cover the man’s shoulder was gently wrapped around my body.

His touch was cautious and done very carefully.

‘What is this?’

I just blinked in embarrassment at the weird situation.

I thought he would have thrown me away.

Or kill me.

If it’s neither then…

Memories of the past resurfaced.

The memories didn’t bother me as much anymore.

‘Don’t expect to be able to enjoy things while you are my child.’

Those were the words said by my first father on my 20th birthday.

A few days later, through the news while I was staying at a shabby gositel, I learnt that the president of the family would be having a grand wedding.

Isn’t it incredible?

There were only a few unmarried women, and I couldn’t even count the number of children he had besides me, but now he was a father who was marrying the mother of his daughter.

Before I knew it, I came to loathe the idea of love.

I couldn’t seem to be able to share my heart with anyone.

My second father was no different.

One day, before suddenly abandoning me, he ruthlessly attacked my martial arts core.

Despite knowing how hard I had been working all this time, he had a natural, non caring expression.

As he stared at me blankly, I scoffed at the sense of betrayal I felt.

‘You can’t leak the techniques.’

‘How could you do this? I’m your daughter…’

Feeling as if my core of life was being ripped apart, he raised his sword with a shivering cold expression as I spewed out chunks of blood.

‘There’s a lot you can find out through one’s body, both dead and alive, digging through the armor.’

‘Are you throwing me away like this?’

‘Because you didn’t make it.’

Thanks to this, the child of the sector, who could have been killed in one strike, was pushed by his hands and tragically fell off the cliff towards her death.

And the third father I just met.

‘I hate this, you son of a bitch. I’m sure sooner or later my blood will be in your hands.’

His touch filled with hesitation was rough and awkward, it seemed he didn’t know how to hold a child properly.

The eyes that had stared at me cautiously now felt like a lie, and his current pupils were facing ahead, seeming as if they would never look at me.

Still, it was a shame, since his purple eyes were pretty.

I had something wrong with my taste buds.

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‘Yeah, this is what life is like. I’m long used to it.’

Funny enough, the man’s temperature in his wide, hard arms was so warm that it was hard to keep awake.

As my tension eases, my eyelids slowly started closing.

At some point, I became unable to think.

“…Let’s go. Back home”

Huh. what.

The man’s words couldn’t reach my ears properly.

My vision gradually turned darker, and my body was engulfed in the feeling of sinking deep in water.

Through my bare consciousness I whispered to myself.

Hehe, it’s warm…

***

When I opened my eyes again, my body felt much better than before.

Ah, it felt as if my heart was going to explode for a different reason.

“….!”

“Oh, you’re awake.”

What, was this my sister?

I was breathlessly surprised.

It was because a woman with a level of beauty I had never seen in all my previous lives was staring at me right in front of my nose!.

Her teeth were like a grain of corn between her brightly smiling red lips.

As I blankly opened my lips, a white hand stretched out and wiped the area around my lips with a handkerchief.

Oh, I was drooling.

My face turned red.

“Nice to meet you, Miss Belis.”

A beauty sings like a nightingale….

Wait, Belis?

Was that my name?

As I stared with my eyes wide open, the purple eyes beauty smiled, bending her eyes as if she read my thoughts.

“Belis. That’s your name.”

Was this what a colorful canary felt like?

As I stared at her with love, the woman who was smiling with her eyes folded gently stroked my forehead.

Her smile was so warm and soft that it made my heart beat uncontrollably.

Hey, you know what?

I think from now on I will like you a lot.

“I looked forward to your kind cooperation, Miss Belis. I’m Radiette.”

Yesyes, me too! Take good care of me!

“Huhu, are you laughing? You have ears like a fox. My lady is so lovely.”

As soon as her lips moved violently and spoke, strange goosebumps scattered around her temples as she smiled.

Wasn’t my name Belis?

‘You’re not in a bad mood, are you?’

As I tightly clenched my fists, the grinning Radiette said ‘Oh my! You must be hungry, please wait a moment.’

‘What is it?’

As I laid in the fluffy crib I couldn’t help but ponder .

What were those goosebumps I felt?

‘Belis.’

As soon as I heard that name, I felt a creepy and familiar feeling that felt as if it would turn into a big trouble if I let it pass by….

“Come on, miss. Open your mouth. It’s delicious powdered milk!”

“…”

But my thoughts were cut off.

This is because my stomach, that had been hungry for a while, kept urging at me to suck the baby bottle in front of my mouth enthusiastically.

I held the bottle of milk handed to me by Radiette and steadily moved my lips.

Glup glup glup

Ah, damn.

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Why did something so bland taste so delicious!

I diligently swallowed the powdered milk, shedding tears.

They were also tears of grief.

The obvious future flowed in full color.

I have to do this again.

Just how many years do I have to live as such a little baby in the future…

Baby bottles, diapers, goddammit.

“Huhu, you are enjoying your meal. Miss, you’re so cute!”

But there were people here that weren’t here in my previous lives.

The eyes of Radiette, who called herself my maid, were full of burdensome kindness, like fruits dipped in melted sugar coating.

Looking at me so lovingly, I thought I’d really fall for that illusion.

‘Hehe.’

The cold expressionless father I saw earlier, and the vague expectation I had that I would be able to live with my father this time, unlike before.

‘Ouch!’

Gulp gulp gulp, guuuulp

Finally, I decided to just focus on drinking the powdered milk and sucked on the bottle vigorously.

‘My god, this is delicious.’

I won’t have the same expectations as before. That way I wouldn’t get disappointed and hurt when I couldn’t have anything.

I had forgotten about it because I was confused and uneasy about many things.

The eerie sensation that comes when you’re unlucky.

That’s what I was missing.

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