ACT : 03

...Solar Pov...

“Remember what we said love. Call us when you land “ Grandpa Jenna says as she gives me a bone crushing hug and a kiss on the cheek

I smile “I will grandma and grandpa. I promise “ I tell them both

They smile and grandpa Luke gives me a loving hug, Also kissing my forehead as I giggle

Smiling at them one last time. With that I grab the handle of my suitcase and make my way to the line that the other girls and boys in our dance class awaits

It would be a lie if I said I wasn’t nervous. I am internally panicking

While on the outside I am excited and giddy. This will be the very first trip I have ever gone on and that to away from my guardians

When I was younger I was always homeschooled. To nervous to be in crowded places

My parents being their understanding selves. They didn’t force me and did what I felt the most comfortable with

And that was online schooling. I have never been one to fit in with groups of children being I liked to stay to myself and be alone

Till this day I am still the same. But it’s different now that I have Olivia and Nyla

And when I want my time alone. They give me my space and never judged or pushed on not letting me have my own space

For that I am truly blessed. And lucky to have those two their parents are nice and lovely people as well

I envy those two for the parents they have. But I am never jealous or hate them for it

It was just my parents time to be called home earlier than expected. And they both raised me with love and care and that’s everything I could ever ask for

Their parents are still here because the man above haven’t called them home yet

So what’s the point in being jealous or hate them for the fact their parents are still here. If anything I’m happy they are because both the girls I call my bestfriends have a lot to show them in the future

“Over here beauty “ Coming out of my thoughts hearing Nyla voice I smile

Walking over to the row they are seated at. Being careful not to bump into people

I finally make it and sit in the seat closest to the window. “Hey girlies “ I say and take a seat as they both smile at me

“It’s finally happening. I can’t wait till we make it and I can’t wait to see the city night lights “ Olivia says with excitement in her voice

Nyla and me both agree with her. “You can say that again. This is gonna be the best trip ever “ She says

We hold light conversation as everyone is still entering the plane. Half of them being older people and people going to different places

...“Please buckle in your seatbelts. As we are now taking off “...

The speaker above us says as everyone buckle in. And the plane engine starts up

“Eeeek I’m so ready “ Nyla quietly squeals as the plane starts moving

Looking out the window I see us going faster and faster down the runway. The plane lifts off the runway and we are lifted in the sky

The pressure making my stomach tighten. I close my eyes and calm down my breathing and panic

Even if this is my second time on a plane ever since coming here to stay with my grandpa and grandma. It feels as if it’s my first time

Knowing this is something I’m gonna have to get use to

If I wanna travel the world and see different places. I know not all of them will be required to take a plane but I still have to be ready

...“We are finally in the air. I hope you all enjoy so sit back and relax “...

The same ladies voice in the intercom says. Everyone unbuckle their seatbelts and pull out things to keep them entertained

“Wow the sky looks so beautiful “ Olivia says as we all look out the small window and see the clouds

I nod “indeed it is lovely. And also relaxing “ I say as I admire the clouds and the blue sky

Another thing I love is a beautiful view. I have also dreamed of living in the forest in a nice modern like mansion

Waking up and hearing the nature life outside. And seeing the beautiful forest trees and greenery

Peaceful

Calming

Relaxing

Is how I wish my life to be. Being able to paint while sitting outside as the smell of the forest invades my nose

Or just doing my yoga and meditating as the cool air nip at my skin

That is my happy place. And seeing as I want to make my dreams a reality I will not stop until I make it come true and look at it all knowing I did it

“Well I’m gonna watch me some Netflix. Just tap me if you girls need anything “ Nyla says as she takes out her AirPods and her neck pillow and blanket

We nod Olivia does the same. But instead of watching Netflix she goes to her apple playlist and put in her AirPods

And holding a fashion magazine. Lastly I take out my phone and AirPods

Putting them in I grab one of my many books I brought. If I’m not reading on wattpad then I am either reading a normal book

Or either reading a manga and other times watching anime

Anime also being where my dream men are at. I don’t find myself wired for liking fictional or made up men

And I don’t mind being judged by people either. I have a mindset of a older person but I also have a mindset of a kid

Guessing it’s from me being socially awkward and nervous talking to people

People other than my grandma and grandpa. Or people other than Nyla and Olivia

Instead of partying I would rather stay inside and read a book. Or do my other indoor house things

Or also worrying about my future than having a boyfriend. Or doing sinful things girlfriends and boyfriends do

I am twenty years old and still a ******. But I don’t mind it because I want all my firsts to be for the man I know I will be with for the rest of my life

Not that I look down on the women that have did those things earlier or at the same age

I’m just the type of person that would rather save all of those for the man my heart pounds rapidly for

Or for the man that makes me all tingly inside. I’m not gonna be the type of woman that just wants her virginity taken by a man because just because I feel embarrassed that I’m still inexperienced

I will not use a man just for that reason. I wouldn’t care if I live out the rest of my life as a ****** because I haven’t found the right one

Call me weird, crazy, or just plain idiotic. To me a my virginity is a big part to me

And I will cherish it like a prized possession. And when the time come if I do give it to a man that just up and left

I wouldn’t be upset about it or mad at the man. I wouldn’t even regret it because it was my choice and if I felt at that moment to give it away

Then what is there for me to be upset and embarrassed for

Neither would I ask the man to take responsibility for me. I would never force a man into something like that

Even he doesn’t want to be with me. Then he doesn’t have to

Opening the page where I left off. I play one of the songs from my playlist { 4 Page Letter , By Aaliyah }

With that I read my book and go to my happy place …………

...1,351 Words...

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