The Doll

How long was it? How long have i lived?

I dont remember..

Who created me or who i've been taken to..

But right now i can see my previous owner leaving me in another person..

The child seem sweet and caring..

She caress me and sang me a lullaby..

She goes to sleep and play with me the next morning

But ofcourse, just as how my previous owners are she left me in another person's arm as soon as she grew up

I'm not sad or anything

I'm just a doll after all.. replaceable and recyclable

Infact i should be greatful that i'm still being use despite being so old

My next owner was an orphan..

A sickly girl who was meant to die young but kept on smiling despite the pain she's suffering

She was brave yet at the same time pitiful..

There's a boy who always visit her every morning and afternoon

He was the only friend she has..

That boy has a bright and shining future ahead of him.. he's a genius and loved by everyone

Some kids even glares at my owner for taking that boy's time with them but ofcourse they pay no heed to any of it

Then one time a kid came and visited my owner and asked

"Why do you lay down everyday yet still eat meals when you do nothing?" The kid's words are full of jealousy and contempt

"I.. dunno" my owner awkwardly replied with a awkward smile

"Don't smile! Its so disgusting! No, you disgust me! I hate you!" The kid then ran out as soon as it shouted

My owner was quite confused but understood what the kid meant..

While they work hard to earn food she, who only lay on the bed was getting special treatment only because she's sick

"Maja do you think i should die already?" She put me on her lap and asked the question where i only listened

"Everyday i try to be healthy and stay alive because the others who work hard for me wants me to be like any other normal kids out there" she caress my head as she spoke

"But now that i think of it i'm just a burden everyone wants to keep because of sympathy and sense of responsibility" some tears roll down her cheeks

"I want everyone to be happy yet because i'm alive their struggling to have me smile and so i did.. but even my smiles aren't enough" she continues to say what's in her mind and bring out everything she's been wanting to say up till now..

After telling me her worries she quickly fell asleep.. i've seen many people with their own worries and for everything i've heard i dont think what she worries for is something to be a big deal

Yet because i also know what kind of owner she is i can say that she is trying her best to overcame her own self

A timid girl yet so brave and fought her illness to stay alive and healthy for those around her

She's so thin and pale.. almost like a bone and corpse but there she is standing and smiling while she stares at the sky

"Maja dont you think the sky is so clear today?" Occasionally putting her mind into something to relax

She would imagine various things such as going around the world and travelling far and wide

"Maja they say the city is beautiful.. do you think i might have the chance to visit the city?" She lay down under the tree

"I even heard that many geniuses go there!" She eventually tear up..

Even though she appears optimistic she's still hurt inside

Her only friend in the orphanage was going to be taken to the city to study and learn things and grow..

Well i know that this would come sooner or later but it seems my owner is still not in a prepared state for that

That evening before the boy go to the city he visited my owner's room but unfortunately my owner was asleep so he could only stay quiet and stare at her for a while

"Tommorow i'll be leaving for the city mary.. please wait for me to come back! I promise i would come back here again and have you look around the city after i earned enough money!" The boy kissed the girl's forehead and left

The girl then opened her eyes..

'I thought she's sleeping..?'

My owner smiled and touched her forehead " you better do as you said Sai.." she mumbled

The next day the boy named sai left the orphanage for the city..

Now my owner is loner than before.. she's also getting weaker.. i can feel her end is coming but then she's also fighting it with her strong will

Years passed its been 10 years ever since the boy went to the city

My owner has now passed the marriageable age yet she still look at the window longing for someone to come

'I bet she's still waiting for that boy'

I have no issue with her waiting but as she waits only her body suffers.. she would look up to the sky from the windows and hum some lullabys as she sew another clothing

The big sisters in the orphange who took care of all children in the orphanage would come and tell her to rest and stop sewing but with my owner's stubborness she pay no mind to their warnings

For 10 years of waiting i'm surprised by how long you managed to fight death and stay as you are now

And for those 10 years the boy who left has not returned nor visited.. not a shadow or presence

"I wonder how he's doing now..?" My owner was now on bridge of death.. i cant even imagine her living for another week more..

It's like she's already a corpse that happens to be a litlle bit warm and still conscious

Then loud noises was gathered outside.. my owner is still sleeping but i could see everything that's happening outside because she pit me on the window

"Sai has returned!"

"Sai! Thank goodness you came back!"

The boy whom my owner has been waiting for 10 years has finally come but it seems he came little too late

The peaceful owner whom i've been with for more than 14 years is now having her most peaceful sleep she ever had

The boy who's now a man came running to the room "mary i'm back!" He said in a bright smile and saw the sleeping mary on the bed

"Hey mary, when i left you we're sleeping now that i came back why are you also sleeping?" The bright smile on the man's face dissipate as he touched the now cold body of mary

"I.. i've let you waited for a long time" he holds her hand as he kissed her forehead "i'm sorry i'm late"

^^^The End^^^

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