Roses

"You need a boyfreind" Cecilia texted me.

Those dreaded words..

Shes been texting me about dating 24/7 these past few days.

ITS IRRITATING

I rubbed my temples and sat down in my chair and started to get to work on my computer. I put in the newly bought game in and waited for it to load.

As soon as I saw that "play" button I clicked it.

Its been a while since I played romance games, especially boyfreind sims.

But as soon as that thing started ive been addicted. Since Cecilia got a boyfreind I assume this will let me pass the time..

I kept clicking and clicking.

12:47

I assume its time for bed..

I looked at my phone and went though my text messages. Cecilia texted me about Cameron and about how awesome he is. He texted me about how adorable she is. And they both sent me couples photos.

EWW

I'm very imature for a 15 year old..

I sat back in my chair and decided to keep playing the game.

Ali she is my freind at school, she knows me as her only freind. She gets along with other kids but her psychotic disorder and mental issues make her stand out.

Click

Cameron, we are good friends, we get along well, hes homeschooled and now he's dating my best friend.

Click

My family, they are kind to me, although they do get on my nerves sometimes.

Click

Cecilia, I dont know who she is to me anymore..

Click

"Please dont ever leave me" The line read.

I slowly blinked.

This game is cheesy.

But it's all I got right now.

Click

...

I opened my eyes and realized I fell asleep while playing the game. I got ready for school and put on my uniform.

On my way to school I felt the light breeze. Winter is coming. I guess that means that it might snow?

I blinked slowly. Deep in thought. Do miracles ever happen..?

I left that childish thought behind and kept on walking. There are more important things than love. I just have to get over it. Once I do I can finally go to a good college and become a doctor or book author.

I have a good life going for me..

I shouldn't let childish feeling destroy me. I need to hide my true feelings. I took a deep gulp.

I stopped again. I dont know why but today is especially hard to keep going..

I looked at a rose bush in the nearby garden. I remember when me and Cecilia where kids we would go there..

I remember we adorned eachother with flowers and put them in eachothers hair..

We eventually got in trouble by the owner for picking the flowers.. we where just kids... we didnt know about love at that time.. yet..

I blinked hard and forced in tears and kept on walking to school. I need to give up on those foolish dreams. Its in the past now.

...

When I sat down next to Alizen she looked over at me.

"you look sad" she said

she said those words with a straight face and no sympathy in her tone.

"I'm ok"