realization

As they walk and buy gifts she doesn't buy herself anything ...they went home and she looked very sad on the way home but she just feels a bit lonely .

The driver that actually really like her and think she nice so he looks at the mirror and sees her sad face ...he asks her then whats wrong and she doesn't reply and says just drive home . He immediately just keeps quiet and then drives till they get home , she goes to her room and doesn't come out for days ...she doesn't eat or sleep she just sits there looking into the void....

The maids and guards talk and they all say to each other " whats wrong with miss she didn't come out of her room or even eaten one of us needs to go up and check on her " . The youngest of the maids decided she'll go up and talk to the young miss and she knocks and hears no sound she goes in and sees the young miss on the bed lifeless not even blinking and the maid goes to sit next to her and hold her but still no movement the maid just sits there not moving either and she sits with the miss for days without eating or sleeping then passes out and the young miss carries the maid out the morning and wait till she wakes up to feed her and the maid asks her to eat aswell and she does then says "I'm going to look for homeless people to help them i know where alot of them live and places we could find some would you like to go with me " the maid looks at the young miss in shock of her words and agrees . They go to the mall and she buys alot of canned foods and toiletries and clothes and they drive through the streets and give it out to homeless people and she gives them a bit of money too ...

they go home and the maid asks her why she does it... she smile and says " because everything they going through i went through and worst i hope to give them some kindness so they can pass it on to the next person in need and all the money i got was a kindness to me i should pay it forward because what good is wealth if i can't help others with it and about the past week that i haven't slept i just have very bad nightmares about myself in different lives going through pain and i just want to stay awake because i don't know what it means and i prefer not eating when I'm feeling depressed "

The maid is speechless again and thinks to herself she is such a damaged wild flower there's no one like her and will never be her word are kind but firm ...harsh yet fair and she you can see the pain in her eyes while she takes care of others i can see she hates the world but she would die for a total stranger.

they get home and go to bed but Tasneem is having trouble sleeping she watches some tv and falls asleep around 03:00 in the morning she sleeps and has nightmares about falling in to a dark void not being able to say or do anything and a voice keeps on saying to her "this time it will be different don't fight the dark or light find the balance which you are the scales moving through time is powerful take your curse and be that balance.... IT WILL BE DIFFERENT THIS TIME" wakes up screaming and sweaty.... its a week before her 18th birthday

she finally gets up before everyone and cooks which she didn't know she have a passion for and really good at ....she eats hers and leaves some for the maids leaving a note that says they should eat up they have a long day and then she left ...

when everyone awakens they check on her and finds that she is gone and goes down and sees the note and they think that she had left ...just when the guards want to go out to look for her she comes back in a sporty outfit and says she just went to clear her head...

she eats again but this time she is eating alot and everyone looks at her confused...expecting the sad and depressed person but she is laughing and asking the maids to sit and eat with her ...

she then gets up and tells them that today they'll go out but everyone should wear casual sport wear and they went to the mall and bought alot of food and clothes and drove around sharing the food with people and

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