Episode 1

it was a dark day as usual, as dark I am not referring to the weather actually if was a very sunny and warm day ,personally I like a rainy and cold day because it helpes me cover the scares on my wrist. as I was laying in my bes wondering what my day is going to look like and if i am going to go over this pretending thing over and over again, I wanted to cry ,I wanted to cry my lunges out until my mom(step mom) comes and hug me (although she doesn't care), I wanted to wet my face with the tears coming out out of my eyes , generally I wanted to fell something, I stopped felling.i stopped felling and being able to cry when I was 14 .I remember that day .it was the day my mom told me she was leaving me .she was seating intro of me wearing her long white dress, she puted her bag on her thig , she was wearing white sneker, her higab was white as snow , some of its part was leaked by her tears and she said to me

"prima (that's a nekename she gave me)I am getting married "

I was devastated it was my birthday and I was so excited to see her after 3 months. my eyes were filed with tears, I wanted to bage her ,I wanted to get on my knees and ask her not to do it but instead of that bad words started coming out of my mouth ..... I said

"you are a bad mother ,you deserve to die , take your cake and get the hell out of my house , I hate you "

that's what I said ,and I could see her broken eyes looking into My eyes deeply. they were saying to me

"please my daughter don't say that , I love u I am doing this because I can't do it any more,please understand"

while I was Yelling my lunges out she responded very calmly .

"emmmm and......... I am 3 months pregnant"

when she said that ,I didn't had the courage to respond I just started crying very loud I knew it was the final I knew my wish, my dreams is never going to be fulfilled. I cried for three hours straight, and my mom ,well she left basically I told her to but she left me all alone, with empty hands, a broken heart, a heart that will never be filled. every since that day I have never cried, thier were plenty of times I wanted to cry my eyes out ,scream talk to some one and fell better, but no I preferred silence, I lost feelings .this morning was one of those days ,those days where I wanted to cry , those days I wanted someone to huge me ,those days where I wanted to scream but,there was nobody, nobody to hug ,nobody to talk to . it was just Helen (my stepsister)banging on my door shouting

"get up you are going to be late get up bich"

😘hey readers this is my first book ever I wish you would like it and enjoy.. their is more to come

some of this novel is true story.

Good luck ❤❤❤❤❤❤

👉Amanda

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