But What After?
I look at myself in the mirror. Man have i changed ever since highschool!
I used to think I had to be the boyish, forever happy, crazy girl...still am, but I've polish some edges!
I don't like skirts make-up and dresses but I wear them from time to time just for the way they make me feel in some situations, powerful and owner of my own body.
I'm slowly gaining some real confidence on my body, although to the outside world I'm extremely confident and proud.
I used to need having friends all around me to actually feel liked, and I still do but I manage to not leave myself so vulnerable anymore.
Still remember how at the age of twelve I was a complete mess, but that's just what happens when you've put on a Miss perfect mask for your hole life!
I'm still trying to find myself, but I'm a lot closer than on my first year of highschool, I'm still good old Nerei though. Still a geek, still a freak and forever an Otaku!
...no it's not just a fase mom!
I got my freak part from my dad, he grew up with his crew FreakGlories as they call themselves. He swore, to the gods of Valhalla, when I was born that his little gremlin would watch Lord of rings, the Hobbit and Starwars until she knew each line! She'd love Marvel just as much as him... Not to forget teaching her everything about roll playing games
He promised the same thing when my little brother was born but fate got it's way and he wasn't as enthusiastic as I. Although he's better as a DM than I am
When the time came for my little sis to be iniciated...she stood out from us by hating all that world! She was born girly but not soft and all that stuff just did interest her
I described myself as an Otaku just now, and not just because of the popularity this word has gained, but because of my actual love for manga and anime! All that culture always attracted me, those weren't comic's nor where they book's the drawing was so different it just seemed so interesting to 9 year old me
I smile to my reflection as I pull my short, messy, and curly brown hair, partially up.
I stared deep into my commun brown eyes winking to myself.
My own expression makes me laugh and I finish changing before grabbing my small backpack, I stop for a second again to look at my outfit.
I'm wearing my usual soft orange t-shirt with "Bow down to your Explosion Queen" written in big black lettering, a high waist black trousers and some kick *** boots. On top of this is my fake leather jacket that I either keep on or tied to my waist.
I lick my lips and take a deep breath, my smile slightly fading.
Nerei
You can do it, it's a new day
I exit my small flat, locking the door after myself and walking through the streets when I reach the bus stop only for some asshole to push me, probably hopping to make me fall.
I actually didn't expect it, but my rugby reflexes kicked in and my feet stood rooted on the ground.
I frowned at the boy I now recognized as a some boy from the campus, I roll my shoulders back relaxing my body but not saying anything.
No need to talk if it's only gonna do bad that's whatI keep repeating inside my head hopping it'll stop me from saying anything stupid.
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