CHAPTER 1

ALKANASIA

I see a bright light shining through my eyes as I first open my eyes. I hear the sound of busy people and faint sobs of a woman.

"My Alkanasia" was her last word before her eyes shut. My eyes water and I begin to cry. I don't know why, but that's all I could do, to cry my heart out.

Waah~ Waah~

"Cassiopeia!" The voice of a man cries out. I look through the blurry view that my tears cover. It is a man with golden blonde hair. He looks so tall. The man clutches the woman as he weeps even louder than mine.

"Cassiopeia! Please, don't leave me!"

...

5 YEARS LATER

"Young Miss, another letter has arrived for you today," I ignore the voice of my maid, Nicole, and continue to scribble on the piece of paper in front of me.

"Young Miss? Are you not going to read your father's letter again?"

For 5 years, I disregarded my father's letters like I did in my 1st life. I already know what is written inside. Those are his "sorry" letters and his "How are yous."

I found out about them when Nicole read them to me the first time a letter arrived in this second life. After that letter, I stopped. I couldn't bear to

listen to those petty words my father, no... that man, wrote. I hate it!

When I died and first arrived in hell right before I met the Demon King, I had so much anger towards my father who never once went to visit or see me. But then I saw the moving pictures in the blood red river. I saw how Father cried in front of my dead body. I saw how the world turned into ashes after my death.

I was afraid. Many lives of innocent people died after my Father recklessly destroyed everything he worked so hard to protect. And in the end, he himself died from suicide. I thought he did something as stupid as that because he loved me. I thought for a second that maybe he really did care for me.

So I

made a deal with the Demon king to return me back to my land and fix

everything to save the lives of those people. The Demon King agreed in one condition. Without a doubt, I agreed to his wishes.

He sent me back to the very first day I was born with my memories attached. I

told myself, I will get better. I will go to my father and ask him the questions I longed to ask him. I want to tell him that he doesn't have to hide his love from

me. That I know.

But after that letter arrived...

My Dearest Daughter

Alkanasia,

How are you my darling? This is my very first letter to you. You are now three. You are old enough to know some of what father is talking about.

Father would like to tell you how sorry I am. I left you alone in that palace and

probably will continue to do so until the time is right. Please forgive me, my

darling. I have to do this.

I know how cruel it is to ask for you to wait for me, but during that time, will you live a grand life there? I hope you will soon feel better. I await for that day to come.

I love you, My darling.

~ Father.

I understand now, even in this lifetime, he still won't come to see me before my death. He won't ever come

visit once.

After that night, I ordered everyone that every letter from him to be burned

right away.

In this lifetime, I will become stronger. I must make sure none of the innocent people that died horribly before suffers the same fate. I want to be their sword

and shield and protect them from any harm. That is my dream. I want to

protect the people from danger and from my father.

7 YEARS OLD ALKANASIA

Throughout the years of living with this useless body, I tried my best to stay

strong. I forced myself to eat even though I would continuously throw up

die to my weak digestive system. Soon, my private doctor told me to try having chicken soup. It worked, but it’s still not good enough.

For 2 years, I tried to make my stamina to be better like I was when I was

around 3, I could at least walk back then. I did daily walks to my window with

the support of my bedroom walls. It took me a while to finally be able to walk without the walls.

Now, I am able to walk without any support, but I still get very tired after a few

meters. These are my achievements so far and I know, with what changes I

have made, it will make a huge impact in the future I have in mind.

"Young Miss, would you like some chocolate pudding? I prepared some for you." I look at Nicole with a weak gaze and a faint smile then slowly shake my

head 'no'. I turn my gaze outside once again where I can see the beautiful garden. Although sitting for just a few minutes while looking outside,

my body still feels like hell. This body sure is weak!

For the past two years, I dedicated myself to studying geography. Knowing

about the 3 Kingdoms, and 4 other lands of this Empire. I studied their cultures and rulers through many books. Not only the lands from the Alkan Empire, I also studied the lands outside. There are so many places for me to go. How I wish to go there.

As a daughter of the Emperor, I dedicated myself to studying so when I return,

I would at least have knowledge of my homeland and Kingdom. But that is not the only reason why… I wanted to see the world too. For seven years, all I’ve seen is this room. I’ve only gotten out to the garden once but that was

years ago. I am such a weak and useless person.

"Nicole?"

"Yes, Young Miss?"

"I would like to go outside."

"B-But young Miss-"

"I'll be careful, I promise"

"Alright, but please use this wheeling chair and let me help you-"

"I want to be alone. Please?"

Nicole hesitates a bit more but I can't blame her, the last time I went outside

was when I was three. It was the next day after the letter arrived and I ran

outside. Just a few minutes of running into the forest, I fainted from exhaustion

and the next thing I knew, I was in a coma for the whole two weeks.

"Alright, but I will come check on you after every two minutes and you also must stay in the garden."

"Yes."

THE GARDEN:

*Breathes out* Finally, I can smell the fresh air again after many years. The

closest to “Fresh air” I got was when Nicole would leave me to see the garden

while sitting on my wheeling chair by the open window.

I want to feel the grass. I want to touch the flowers. I've only watched them

these few years of my existence. Haa~ ... I look down before I put my foot on

the green and freshly cut grass and help myself to stand.

Haaa~ This feels so good. The warm air hitting my pale skin, the Summer

breeze passing through my long, brown, wavy hair. For the first time, I

feel....

Free.

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