14th December, 2017 /20th December, 2017

14th December, 2017

...I haven't been able to sleep for the past week. Schedule's been really hectic. We're all surviving on 45 minutes sleep everyday.

Thankfully it's my birthday month so ARMYs are hyping me up. They've always been doing it. I posted a selca a few days back on twitter and even with my makeup on they understood I was tired. They asked me to take care of myself and not overwork....but little do they know we're doing this so THEY can rest well. They always tell us how we and our music help them when they need someone by their side the most. So we feel obligated to complete this job for them. We work till we drop so we can hear them saying "you picked me up again when I fell; your music stood by me in my hard times and I'm thankful to BTS...." these are the words that keep us going.

But even with so much love around me I still can't stop thinking about her.

This dream has seriously taken a toll on me. I don't know why it's bothering me so much but now I've started looking at passerbys when we're in the van and try to kind of look at their faces to recognise her.

But no one. I don't see her anymore. After the wings album release we gained more global recognition. We've made many new fans.

We need to work harder for them.

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20th December, 2017

After moving in- into Hannam we've kind of been a bit less busier. It's christmas season anyways so other than filming some stuff there's nothing much going on.

In our free time, all of us do what we couldn't catch up all this while. Suga hyung either sleeps or stays in his studio. Namjoonie hyung goes out on museum visits. Hobi hyung sometimes accompanies Jiwoo noona or randomly goes out shopping. Jungkookie either draws or sleeps or just lives in the gym along with Jiminie. Jin hyung spends time in the company.

I play with Yeontan since I feel bad for not being able to give him much time. I pretty much stay home when I don't have any schedules to fulfil.

....and there's this girl I've seen in 121둥... she is kind of pretty... she's an ARMY too. When I spend some time in the balcony or in my room or when the curtains are open, I seem to get glimpses of her from her room whenever her windows are open. I don't try to peek in or something but my eyes just wander there sometimes.

She plays with her dog from time to time. Makes videos what I assume could be tiktoks....she can't really dance but I'm sure her videos turn out being cute.

And she's clumsy! She trips and falls on her own feet sometimes while making videos.

She goes out for walks during the evening.

She's pretty...

Oh- and since she's an ARMY, she knows we live here and are neighbours now so whenever our eyes meet from our rooms and balconyies, she always greets us politely. No matter who the member is. But it's just greeting with a bow, no approaching us. The other members too have noticed her and we've even spoken about her once. Everyone praises her for being understanding. We appreciate that she doesn't try to pry into our personal lives.

People would've been sneakily taking pictures of us doing our thing even if they just get a glimpse of us from behind our curtain covered rooms but she doesn't. She just smiles and gets back inside her room. Maybe shy or embarrassed seeing us in person but she's respectful atleast.

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