Episode 6

Days went by and I was still in the thought of all those things that happened..

To me it seemed like as if everything's just too dramatic like I was in some sort of drama..

It felt so unrealistic.. I didn't know if it was a good thing or a bad thing..

I felt like my life was scripted.. And was wondering why am I thinking about all this nonsensical things.. But still it felt so real..

Sometimes the things I see in my dreams became real.. as if it was some kind of future predictions..

Nothing I wished for before God came true from childhood days till I turned twenty..

I finally started having disbelief in God.. I knew whatever's gonna happen to me depends on what I do..

I just kept on living without giving much thought about anything.. I just needed to pass my day whatever and however it is till my last breath..

Soon after another person came into my life again.. I didn't have any kinds of feelings for him but since our thinking seems to match I gave it a try..

We started dating.. And we have been together for about half year.. But then we started drifting apart after I told him all about my past..

The words that came out of his mouth were straightforward but was harsh for me although I knew he might feel that way from the start..

He began contacting less and less as days went by.. But I thought I should at least try not to let go just like this.. So I called him up whenever I felt like wanting to talk to him..

But he always kept on ignoring my calls claiming that he was busy.. And never calls me back..

Soon it was my birthday.. I wished for him to call me at least on my birthday but that was just my wishful thinking..

Later I stopped caring about this stupid relationship in which only I was the one who cared..

A month after my birthday I told him to that I want to end up our relationship..

I was scared so I just left the chat after sending the text message.. I was afraid he will agree to it.. But inside I was hoping he would ask me not to part ways..

When I checked later.. I saw that he deleted some messages he sent and just agreed to it..

I was angry so I just blocked his number.. He didn't try to contact me nor did I..

Days passed by in this way..

I spent my days as usual.. Doing things I usually do like making clothes.. watching dramas and so on..

After about five or six months I received news from my aunt about an aunty trying to matchmake me with her son..

He was my school senior but I didn't know anything about him.. Also I was not ready for all those things..

Thankfully.. my mom sides with me.. So I felt.. maybe relieved..

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