Chapter:4

...Yoongi knows so much about Jimin....

...He knows the bad....

...He knows the good....

...He always chose to say for the good because they often outweighed the bad....

...There were some things he wished he didn't know about Jimin. It wasn't that it was because it made Jimin a bad person, or that it was Jimin's fault....

...The things he wished he didn't know, were the things he wished had never happened to Jimin....

...He wished he didn't know about how Jimin was bullied. He wished Jimin was never bullied....

...He wished he didn't know about why Jimin was so insecure and he wished Jimin wasn't insecure....

...He wished he didn't know why it was so hard for Jimin to simply be Jimin because he wished he loved himself the way Yoongi loved him....

...Yoongi still remembers the first time he ever saw Jimin truly upset....

...He had walked Jimin back to his dorm and when they entered they saw Taehyung....

...Taehyung turned around, he was smiling and had lipstick on, "Hey Hyung! Look at what I got! The makeup department came by to do the acting class's makeup. A girl said she really wanted to put this shade if lipstick on me, something about it going with my skin tone really well, but anyway, she liked how it looked and so did everyone else so they gave me the lipstick. Pretty cool huh? I mean, I don't know if I'm going to wear it or not but I like how it looks."...

...Yoongi looked over at Jimin, he remembered what Jimin had told him about the ladies at his mother's work putting makeup on him....

...Jimin had a sad look on his face. He just nodded and said, "Yeah Taehyung, it's a really nice shade on you."...

...After that, he went to his room....

...Taehyung turned to Yoongi with a confused look on his face, "What was that about? Do you know if something happened today?"...

...Yoongi had just shrugged, "I don't know, he seemed fine before, let me go see if he's ok."...

...Taehyung nodded and Yoongi made his way to Jimin room. He knocked before entering, "Jimin, are you ok? I d- are you crying?"...

...Jimin quickly wiped his eyes and shook his head, "No, it's fine. I'm fine. It's nothing."...

...Yoongi sat down next to him on his bed. He had never seen Jimin cry before. He didn't like it, it didn't suit the boy....

...Nudging him slightly Yoongi spoke, "You and I both know that's not true. What's wrong? Did something happen just now?"...

...Jimin took a deep breath, "It's stupid. Seriously, I should be over it."...

..."Jiminnie, what is it? What should you be over?"...

...Jimin looked at his hands, "You know how I told you about how the women at my mom's work would put makeup on me?" Yoongi nodded, "Well, they gave me a tube of lipstick one day and I was so happy. I couldn't believe I finally had my own makeup, we could barely afford other things, makeup wasn't exactly on the list of important things. I was so excited in fact, that I decided to wear it to school the next day. A lot of people looked and treated me differently. There were so hurtful names thrown my way, when I got home I didn't understand why I was being treated so differently, I didn't even think if it being the lipstick."...

...Jimin lets out a sad laugh, "Of course I wore it again the next day. Why wouldn't I? I felt amazing when I wore it. But, there were a few older guys that grabbed me, I was able to swat them away before they actually touched me but I didn't like it. God, I was an idiot. I still didn't even think about it being the lipstick. So I wore it again the next day, it was a Friday so I had to walk home, nothing out if the normal. People were still picking on me a little but not as much. So I was on my way home and the same guys that were grabbing at me before jumped me behind some building. The kept grabbing at my *** and some gross guy kept kissing me. Finally, one guy said something along the lines of ' You sure do look like a beautiful girl with that lipstick on, wonder if it would feel the same fucking you'. Thankfully they didn't do anything more than grope me but I was so fucking scared they were going to do more. Someone had passed by not too long after and they ran. Needless to say, I threw the lipstick away that night." Jimin had a few tears falling down his cheeks again....

...Yoongi was seething with anger. How dare someone do that to his Jiminnie? How dare someone take something he loved away from him? It wasn't right....

...Jimin looked up at Yoongi, tears still falling, "It was a year or so ago but it still scares me so much. It's so stupid. Just seeing Taehyung so happy with lipstick on reminded me of it. I just really hope people aren't as bad to him as they were to me." Jimin tried to wipe away his tears but they continued to fall, "I should be over it."...

...Yoongi pulled Jimin's hands down and looked at him sternly, "Jimin, it just happened a year ago. It's ok not to be over it. It was probably really traumatizing. It's ok." Jimin's tears were still running down his face so Yoongi pulled the younger boy into his arms and held him close, "I swear to god, if anyone ever does that to you again I'll kill them. No one deserves that. If I had been there a year ago I don't know what I would've done but it would probably have been something dealing with homicide."...

...At that Jimin laughed a little bit, "Thanks, Hyung. It means a lot."...

...He wrapped his arms around Yoongi's and they sat there together for a while....

...When Jimin finally pulled away Yoongi smiled at him, "You know, it's different here. People are a lot more accepting here. It's crazy, it's like gender roles and homophobia doesn't exist in this school. For example, there's this kid, I think he's in your class, Choi Minki, he is very feminine. Wears dresses and everything; no one ever says anything to him. Like it's an arts school and you have to be pretty open minded to be into the arts so maybe it's not that crazy. I've seen guys wear makeup and a few even wear skirts and dresses, like Choi Minki. Not to mention about half the students here are hella gay. If there are homophobic people here they don't act on their homophobia."...

...Jimin smiled brightly, "Yeah, I noticed that. It's really cool."...

..."If you still like makeup, you could wear it here and I don't think anyone would say anything."...

..."You think?"...

...Yoongi nodded, "Oh yeah. Also, I would really love to see you in makeup. I think you would look good."...

...Jimin blushed and nodded, "Maybe I'll start wearing it again."...

...Yoongi smiled, "You should."...

...And on that Friday, Jimin did wear makeup....

...And Yoongi had never felt gayer in his entire life, maybe he is full on homosexual who fucking knows at this point....

...Jimin had entered his music theory class, a class he shared with Yoongi, wearing red lipstick, eyeliner, and eyeshadow. It was true, Yoongi had seen plenty of guys wearing makeup before, but none of them looked as hot as Jimin....

...And it seemed like the whole class agreed on that very thought....

...A few girls asked him about his eyeliner, wondering how he got the lining so straight and perfect. A few guys had taken more than a few looks at Jimin, most of them of more than just his face....

...And Yoongi, Well Yoongi could barely even function when Jimin took his usual seat beside him....

..."Hi Hyung! How do you like my makeup?" Jimin's smile seemed brighter than usual today....

...Yoongi looked at him for a second, unable to speak....

...Jimin's smile faded a little bit, "Do you not like it?"...

...Yoongi shakes his head frantically, "Oh god no Jimin," Yoongi had swallowed hard, "You- you look really, really good."...

...Jimin's smile brightened and a dark blush had spread across his cheeks, looking back on it, Yoongi couldn't believe he thought Jimin would never like him....

..."Thank you, Hyung. That's really nice of you to say."...

...Yoongi nodded silently and looked back down to his book....

...That night all Yoongi could think about was Jimin's plump red-colored lips would feel again his own. (And how they would look wrapped around a certain body part but mainly the kissing thing)...

...A few weeks had past and things were not looking good for Yoongi....

...Jimin would wear makeup almost every day. Not always doing his eyes and lips, sometimes it was just eyeliner or eyeshadow and other times it was lipstick....

...Either way, the day would end with Yoongi having sexual frustration and pounding away at the closest thing to him....

...His piano....

...Many nights Hoseok would come to him at three in the morning yelling for him to shut up and go to bed but even then he couldn't get his mind off the beautiful boy....

...So that day shouldn't have come by a surprise and he should've known exactly what Hoseok was asking about but somehow, he didn't see it coming....

...They were out at their local music store when Hoseok asked, "Yoongi. What The **** has been up with you lately?"...

...Yoongi looked up from the classical music section, a small part of the store but it always had a great selection of different composers, "What do you mean?"...

..."I mean, every night for the past fucking week you've stayed up past two in the fucking morning playing piano at the highest fucking volume possible. I realize you have insomnia or whatever but when you have a sleepless night you play different pieces, softer ones. Lately, you've been playing more hectic and darker ones. Are you alright? Like are you depressed or some shit?"...

...Yoongi fucking wished it was depression, but no. He was in lo- like with park fucking Jimin and didn't know how to fucking deal with it because he had never had a simple elementary school crush before and now every second of the Damn day is spent thinking about how soft Jimin's skin would be on his fingertips....

...So no, he was not "alright". In fact, he was very far from it....

...But was he going to tell Hoseok about his not so small crush on Jimin? Oh, **** no....

..."I'm fine I guess, sorry. I didn't realize I was playing that loudly."...

...Hoseok looked at Yoongi for a moment before he smirked a little, "How are you and Jimin?"...

...Yoongi nearly choked, "What do you mean?"...

...Hoseok laughed, "I mean, ever since we got back from Christmas break you have been making up excuses to be around him. First, it was just going to go hang out every once and a while and now it's like you're spending more time with him than me."...

..."You could just be jealous that I have another friend I want to hang out with." He was trying to play it off....

..."Oh no, I'm not just jealous or making this all up. I talked to Taehyung and it seems like he feels the same way."...

..."Well, maybe it's because you both have attachment issues."...

...Hoseok scoffed, "Yeah right."...

...Yoongi smiled, "You know it's true."...

..."No, but seriously Yoongi, the other day I asked if you wanted to come with me to get coffee and you said that you already had doing nothing planned. Then when Jimin asked if you wanted to practice not ten minutes later you fucking jumped at the chance. You never go out when you have nothing planned. THAT'S YOUR FAVORITE THING TO DO!!"...

...It was true, Yoongi really loved doing nothing....

..."Well, maybe I just wanted to practice."...

...Hoseok snorts, "Sure, maybe you wanted to practice, with Jimin."...

...Yoongi sighs, this kid just wouldn't stop....

..."Please Hoseok, just drop it."...

...Hoseok's smile dimmed and a shocked look took over his face, "Oh my god, Yoongi. I-I never actually thought you would like like him."...

...Yoongi rubs his face with his hand, "Hoseok. I don't want to talk about this. Not here."...

..."I'm sorry Yoongi, I just never thought you would have a crush on someone. This is so weird. I was honestly just joking when I talked about you guys getting together."...

..."Yeah, Well, it doesn't matter. He probably doesn't feel the same. And I'll get over it, you know me." Most things and people Yoongi took interest in almost always ended with him losing interest....

..."But what if he does feel the same? Then what?"...

...Yoongi laughed, "As if anyone that perfect and beautiful would like me. Have you seen my face?"...

..."Hum, your right. You are pretty ugly."...

...Yoongi shoves him, "As if you have any room to talk horse face."...

..."I'll have you know that horses are some awesome animals. At least I don't look like a ghost."...

..."Whatever lets just get our things and check out already." Yoongi picked up a CDs he was going to get and started walking to the cashier....

...Hoseok ran to catch up to him, "You know you can't keep your feelings to yourself forever right? Somehow you will probably tell Jimin and you guys will probably date or something. Don't fight it."...

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