poem: Attention Seeker

I feel insecure

I feel like a bunch of eyes are watching my every move

I have friends that say"I'm right beside you"

But I have trust issues

Always acting like I'm strong but I know I cry all the time

Easy to get hurt but smiling all the time to pretend I'm happy

I cannot please my Heart up to people

People say they like me but would you like me of you knew ye real me

Trying my best to make others happy

But have I ever made myself happy

I am an attention seeker

I want all attention

I push others away

Then when they leave

I blow a tantrum saying"he/she wasn't really my friend, he never really cared for me"

Why do they care for me

Why do you care if I cry

Of you say those types of words

I'll fell like I'm

wanted

Loved

Needed

Do not give me that kind of hope

A faith to cling on

I'll prefer drowning in depression,misery , sadness and in pain

If you are nice to me you'll show me light

I do not want to see that light because it gives me hope

And that hope I do not need

I've been living in depression and sadness

Do not give me light then take it

It is better if I drown in the darkness

I am a flower that blooms on the darkness

That is the only place I can live

A flower born of sin

A flower born of darkness

A flower that will be consumed by light

A flower that will be burnt of reach's light

A flower born of darkness

A flower destined to be alone

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