...“Jimin?” Yoongi says, stepping cautiously towards him. Jimin can’t actually remember how long he has been stood outside of this basketball hall now, just staring into space....
...“Are you okay?” he asks, worried at how out of it Jimin seems....
...“What do you think?” he hisses, rubbing at his arms to try and generate some heat. Yoongi looks down at the floor, messing with his fingers and Jimin rolls his eyes....
...“What do you want?” Jimin mutters, kicking at the pavement....
...“I want you” Yoongi whispers, with puppy dog eyes he doesn’t even realise he is making....
...“No, you want to **** me” Jimin narrows his eyes and crosses his arms....
...“Jimin”...
...“You said it yourself!” he shouts and Yoongi flinches, he didn't think Jimin had it in him to get angry, he was always so soft. Giggling and blushing. This isn't Jimin, he's not like this and Yoongi hates himself for flipping this switch in his personality....
...“I was mad” he says and Jimin doesn’t think he has ever been this furious in his entire life....
...“You were mad?!” he exclaims in disbelief, his face turning red with rage....
...“I was scared” Yoongi admits and Jimin is struggling to keep up his furious exterior with Yoongi’s soft features being lit up by the streetlight above them....
...“All I wanted was for you to care-” Jimin confesses....
...“And I do” Yoongi insists and tears start to build in Jimin’s eyes again....
...“Do you?” he questions and Yoongi comes closer, to the point that their noses are almost touching, “or do you just care about getting into my pants?” he spits, putting his palms against Yoongi’s chest and shoving him backwards....
...“Jimin” he says firmly and grabs his arm but Jimin snatches it right back from him....
...“Don’t!” he shouts, a tear escaping despite how hard he tries to stop it and turns his back on Yoongi, walking away from him....
...“Fuck!” Yoongi screams and kicks over one of the garbage bins. It takes everything Jimin has not to look back as he speeds back to his dorm building....
...What is going on? Jimin kind of got what he wanted, Yoongi told him he loved him but how did it all get so fucked up? Yoongi's words sting, they rattle around in Jimin's head, they're so spiteful and he so desperately hopes that he didn't mean any of it but Jimin doesn't have much to hold onto. He is so emotionally exhausted that he gets straight into bed without even changing into his pyjamas and tries to take his mind off of everything as he falls asleep....
...When he wakes up the next morning he checks his notifications first thing, secretly hoping for a text from Yoongi but there is nothing. He may feel like shit but he refuses to look like it, no one needs to know about this, he won’t be just another one of Yoongi’s heartbroken clingy exes, he refuses. When he walks into class today none of them will be the wiser and if somehow people are beginning to gossip then he will hold his head high with freshly washed hair, a button down shirt and his pride intact....
...He arrives at the lecture hall and takes his seat. No one gives him any weird looks and there aren’t any hushed ‘Mean Girls’ whispers so he assumes that no one suspects anything and he is in the clear....
...Yoongi isn’t here which Jimin should be happy about in theory but throughout the class he can’t help looking back at the door. After the way Yoongi treated him why is his heart still worried about where he is and why he isn't here?...
...Once class is over the professor sets them an assignment to do so Jimin decides it is best to get started straight away, heading to the cafe. When he goes in Hoseok signals him to come over to the counter, placing his ready made Macchiato down on it because Jimin had texted him to let him know he was coming....
...“Do I have something in my teeth?” Jimin asks Hoseok who has been staring intently at him for the past thirty seconds and it’s starting to make Jimin uncomfortable....
...“You gave Yoongi those love bites didn’t you?!” Hoseok half gasps half squeals and Jimin hushes him....
...“Love bites? Are you a teenager?” he retorts, ripping a packet of sugar open and pouring it into his cup....
...“Besides the point. When I saw them this morning I knew it must have been your handy work. No way would he ever let someone else leave a mark on him” he comments, taking the towel off of his shoulder and starting to dry the freshly clean cups....
...“How do you mean?” Jimin asks, running his finger along the lip of his mug, picturing how Yoongi's neck must look right now....
...“Dude, leaving a hickey on someone is like giving them a t-shirt that says ‘dont ask me out I’m already fucking someone’” Hoseok elaborates and Jimin just looks startled, he isn’t really aware of much slang or any of the weird hidden terms of his generation....
...“Wait you saw him this morning?” he questions....
...“It’s not like we live together or anything” he says sarcastically and Jimin rolls his eyes, “wait why?”...
...“He didn’t come to class this morning” Jimin tries to sound casual but it’s clear that he’s concerned....
...“What happened? You’re being snappy with me this morning, Yoongi flat out ignored me” he interrogates, folding his arms....
...“Oh what happened? You were right that’s what happened” he snaps....
...“Right about what?” he looks confused and Jimin sighs....
...“Yoongi’s an asshole. Before you start the romantic comedy speech about how I shouldn’t have expected him to be different and shouldn’t have tried to change him, I know that, I have realised that now, it happened the hard way but you were right. I should’ve stayed away” he admits with a frown and Hoseok gives him a look of sympathy, telling him his drink is on the house and not to worry about it. He has seen many a heart ache for Yoongi but this time is different. Hoseok can see how Jimin feels about Yoongi, it’s not like the others do and he also sees how Yoongi feels about Jimin which is certainly nothing like the others....
...Jimin manages to get halfway through his assignment, staying until the cafe closes before he eventually heads home....
...Class rolls around again and still no Yoongi until almost an hour in when the door flings open, slamming against the wall with a bang that startles the entire group. Jimin’s head shoots round and there Yoongi is in the doorway, looking down at him with hurt eyes....
...He looks rough....
...Hot but rough....
...He is wearing a black turtleneck with a black denim jacket on and a black beanie that he pulls off of his head, his hair a mess underneath with his dark roots growing in and the green fading away. He is clearly drunk, anyone would be able to see that and he has a beer bottle in his hand as he staggers forward, the entire class in shock. Yoongi is rebellious sure but he has never pulled a stunt like this before....
...“Min Yoongi is that a beer?” the professor exclaims....
...“Does it look like an energy drink to you?” he scoffs, taking another sip from it and Jimin can’t quite believe how he is talking to her....
...“You need to leave” she orders and he chuckles....
...“Gladly” he gives her a fake smile and his middle finger which makes the entire class gasp. The professor is extremely quick to move on but Jimin can’t, it’s all he thinks about for the remainder of the session. As he comes out of the hall he spots Yoongi lying on a bench smoking. His beanie is back on now, down over his eyes and Jimin hates himself for thinking it looks cute on him....
...“Do you want to get kicked out?” Jimin asks him as he strolls over to the bench....
...“Er, let me think about it” he says, sitting up and pulling the beanie up so that he can actually see Jimin, “yes” he states bluntly, getting off of the bench....
...“You don’t mean that” Jimin says and Yoongi starts to walk away, taking a drag from his cigarette and Jimin coughs as the smoke flies backwards, getting encased in the cloud of it....
...“What’s it to you? You hate me now” he mumbles around the cigarette and Jimin jogs after him....
...“I don’t hate you Yoongi, not even a little bit” he promises, putting his hand on Yoongi’s face to get him to look at him. Looking into his eyes again, touching him again, being close again, it all makes Jimin's heart ache a tiny bit. He takes the cigarette out of Yoongi’s mouth and throws it onto the floor....
...“I fucked it up like I do everything” he says, a look of pain flashing across his eyes and without even thinking Jimin caresses his face with his thumb....
...“I don’t-” Jimin starts and Yoongi suddenly hugs him tight. The smell of smoke is so strong and even though Jimin despises it he doesn't pull back, despite how cold it is out here Yoongi is so warm and Jimin can’t help but feel secure in his arms....
...“I’m sorry” Yoongi whispers and Jimin can’t resist nuzzling into his shoulder for a second. Yoongi has never ever hugged him before and as much as he may deny it at this point in time Jimin loves him....
...A lot....
...And Yoongi loves Jimin....
...Well, Jimin hopes. He wishes he could change it, he didn’t want Yoongi to tell him in a heated moment of lust when he could barely hear him. He wants Yoongi to tell him again because he wants to hear it properly this time, to look into Yoongi’s eyes as he says it and be able to say it back....
...“I know” he says quietly and they finally part, both feeling a sense of loss....
...“I just- you’re nice” Yoongi stutters....
...“Thanks?” Jimin’s eyebrows knot in confusion....
...“No, really, I’m serious” he states and Jimin tilts his head to the side, “I like you and I have no fucking idea what to do about it” he confesses and Jimin doesn’t know what to say, “you make me want to be better but it’s hard” he says and Jimin’s heart isn’t listening to his head once again, “you make me want to give a shit about this school even though I don’t show it and you make me want to do well, to try to treat you better” he admits awkwardly and any kind of rationale Jimin had has gone right out of the window, his heart is definitely taking over, “you have this influence over me and it's driving me fucking nuts” he chuckles and all Jimin wants to do is hug him, love him but he just can’t bring himself to, not that easily. Yoongi needs to see that he can’t treat Jimin like that....
...“I hope it's a good influence” he jokes....
...“I’m such a fucking trainwreck” Yoongi looks so broken and Jimin wants to pick up all the pieces “and you’re-” he keeps rambling and Jimin shh’s him gently....
...“Hey, go home, have a shower and drink a hell of a lot of water, sleep it off and don’t be late to class tomorrow or practice” he instructs and Yoongi nods....
...“Okay” he promises and tries to kiss Jimin but he moves his face down out of the way....
...“I’m not there yet” he says quietly and Yoongi tells him it’s alright but he can’t hide the look of sadness on his face....
...A week has gone by now, Yoongi attended all the lectures on time like Jimin told him to. The professor sat Yoongi by himself way at the back, he and Jimin barely spoke the entire week, for the first time there wasn’t that much to say and both of them hated the silence. When it came to Saturday Jimin felt hopelessly bored and even slightly lonely until his phone vibrated against the table....
...Yoongi: meet me after practice?...
...Jimin had deleted the heart from Yoongi’s name the night of their fight but as he gets the notification on his phone it doesn’t look right without it....
...Jimin: I should study...
...Yoongi: please...
...Jimin: I don’t know...
...Yoongi: at the cafe?...
...Yoongi: i know you like it there do not try to bullshit me...
...Jimin: Okay, maybe an hour?...
...Yoongi: ill buy your drink...
...Jimin: Fine, two hours...
...Yoongi: ill suck your ****...
...Jimin: Yoongi!...
...Yoongi: too far?...
...Jimin: Two hours and a free drink...
...Jimin: Then I’m leaving...
...Jimin: I’ll time it...
...Yoongi: you little shit...
...Jimin smiles to himself, feeling as if for once he has the upper hand in this relationship, or friendship, or whatever it is called. He is always on time, he has never really been late for anything in his entire life, nothing he can remember anyway. So when 3:00PM rolls around he leaves it a little bit, if Yoongi wants to see him that bad then surely he would wait for him....
...Yoongi: ur coming right?...
...Yoongi: ive already ordered your drink...
...Yoongi: but i cant spell it...
...Yoongi: but its definitely the right one...
...Yoongi: i remembered...
...It’s 3:10PM now....
...Yoongi: its getting cold...
...Yoongi: im sure its the right one...
...Yoongi: im sorry if its not...
...Yoongi: but im sure it is...
...You changed Yoongi’s name to Yoongi ❤️...
...Yoongi ❤️: ill drink it if its wrong and get you the right one...
...Jimin decides that Yoongi has suffered enough and walks down to the cafe, he looks in the window before going in and there he is. Yoongi’s sat waiting, bouncing his leg nervously and rubbing the side of Jimin’s drink with his fingertip....
...Jimin goes in, smiling at the ‘not Hoseok’ barista and pushing up his glasses as he takes his seat in front of Yoongi....
...“Hi” Jimin greets him with a smile and he doesn’t think he has ever seen such a look of relief in his entire life....
...“I thought you weren’t coming” he says quietly and suddenly Jimin feels awful for making him wait but then he remembers what Yoongi said and he doesn’t feel as bad....
...“I could ask her to reheat it maybe” he suggests as Jimin takes a sip from the drink....
...“No, no it’s fine” Jimin protests and Yoongi just stares at him intently, “oh it is the right drink” he confirms and Yoongi pretends to wipe sweat from his brow with a ‘phew’ and Jimin giggles....
...“I haven’t smoked in almost a week now” Yoongi tells him and it’s hard to tell if he’s proud of himself or if he wants Jimin to be proud of him....
...“That’s great” he smiles and for the first time in a while Yoongi smiles back....
...“So how is your essay thing for class going?” he asks, messing around with the zipper on his leather jacket....
...“Fine I guess” Jimin shrugs and then they’re in silence again....
...“Do you want something else?” Yoongi breaks the awkward atmosphere, “like a muffin, I don’t know” he offers....
...“I’m okay” Jimin declines and Yoongi doesn’t quite know what to do with himself....
...“I’m really sorry” he blurts out....
...“I know” Jimin nods and Yoongi sighs. Jimin’s eyes trail down Yoongi’s neck, the marks he made on him are starting to fade now and Jimin is almost upset that he didn’t get to see them properly, when they were fresh. He hadn’t meant to ‘lay claim’ to Yoongi or anything like that but he did take slight pleasure in knowing that he had done them and that anyone who set their sights on Yoongi for the past week or so would have seen them too....
...“I was scared because I started to feel more and more crazy about you, wanting more than just to **** and I don’t know how to be that person for someone but I really like you” Yoongi confesses. Granted he could’ve worded it a little more gracefully but it still tugs at Jimin’s heartstrings despite him trying to be stern about this whole situation....
...“You don’t really know me though do you” Jimin states....
...“Fuck off yes I do” he insists and Jimin sips his coffee....
...“What do you know about me?” he questions, genuinely interested in the view of him that Yoongi has. Sure they used to talk in class a lot but half the time Jimin wasn’t even sure if Yoongi was listening and if he was Jimin didn’t expect him to retain any of it....
...“Lots of stuff! Your favourite colour is green because you like to be outdoors, you hate when people put too much milk in your coffee and you are secretly obsessed with teen drama shows” he reels off with a smug smile, thinking he has absolutely nailed it. Sure these things are true but anyone could figure them out by talking to Jimin for five minutes or just going through his online profile, it's not good enough, not to win him back....
...“That isn’t who I am Yoongi” he says and Yoongi’s face drops....
...“Okay then” he starts, accepting the challenge, “you’re funny even though you don’t try to be or think that you are, you’re not a nerd you’re smart and hardworking, you are genuinely a nice person and want to see the best in people, even an asshole like me” Yoongi professes and Jimin laughs “oh and you laugh like a kid, which I find really nice” he adds, getting embarrassed....
...“Nice?” he giggles....
...“I like it, it makes me smile” he explains....
...“If you say so” Jimin blushes with a grin....
...“How did I do?” he asks, finally sitting back in his chair after being up right, unrelaxed this entire time....
...“Well”...
...“Just well?!” he exclaims....
...“Was it painful for you to talk to me so nicely?” Jimin jokes....
...“Extremely, I’m glad I did though” he admits....
...“Me too” Jimin says, holding his coffee mug up to his face to try and disguise how shy he is getting....
...“But if you tell anyone that I said it I will kill you” he shrugs as if there is no other option....
...“That would be a shame” Jimin nods....
...“Wouldn’t it just? So don’t” he states bluntly. Yoongi wouldn't be Yoongi without at least a sightly snarky comment so Jimin lets it slide....
...“Don’t worry, your secret soppy side is safe with me” he giggles and pushes his glasses up his nose....
...“Oh and one more thing” he starts and Jimin looks at him intently, “you look great with or without your glasses” he assures him, making Jimin blush, “I just happen to have a soft spot for the glasses” he admits in addition and Jimin can’t help but smile, getting all embarrassed and fiddling with the packets of sugar on the table....
...“Can it be my turn now?” he asks and Yoongi’s eyes go wide....
...“Woah no, let’s not talk about me” he protests, waving his hands....
...“I have a soft spot for your leather jacket and your piercings and your pastel hair” he begins and Yoongi shifts awkwardly, clearly uncomfortable with compliments, “but more importantly I have a soft spot for your smile, despite the fact that I don’t see it as much as I should and that means that when I do I cherish it” he says and Yoongi smiles but gets self-conscious and tries to cover it with his hand....
...“That’s enough” he warns....
...“Fine, I’ll let it go for now” he backs down and Yoongi thanks him for doing so....
...“Your roommate still not said a word?” he tries to start a new conversation when it feels like it is dying down....
...“Barely. Yesterday he said goodbye, you don’t understand the shock that came over me, I think we’re making progress” he recounts overdramatically....
...“I’d happily take that over our new housemate the guy is a fucking moron” Yoongi laughs, he has only been living there for a few days but he is mental....
...“Yeah I’ve heard some of the stories around campus” Jimin says and some is an understatement....
...“Don’t”...
...“Did he really try and swing from your living room light?” Jimin asks....
...“Yes he did, Namjoon had to hold him back” he remembers....
...“No way!” Jimin bursts into laughter. They laugh for ages and it finally feels natural again. The conversation flows wonderfully and they both haven’t had this much enjoyment in a while. Once the cafe closes Yoongi offers to walk Jimin home to which he shyly accepts because it’s dark, Yoongi makes him feel safe and he really doesn't want to leave him yet. Again he is tempted to hold Yoongi’s hand and at one point it even seemed like Yoongi might be trying to hold his. When they arrive outside Jimin’s dorm they stand there for a little bit, facing each other, not saying anything until Jimin gets flustered and breaks their eye contact....
...“Can I kiss you?” Yoongi whispers and Jimin just stares at him, “because last time you backed away and I didn’t want to just-” he rambles and Jimin cuts him off with a kiss....
...It’s not like the other kisses they have shared, it’s sweet and sensitive, both of their hearts beating out of their chests as if it is the first time their lips have ever touched....
...When they part neither of them can wipe the smiles off of their faces, Yoongi scratching his head and looking around to try and brush it off while Jimin opts for looking down at his feet....
...Jimin turns on his heels and heads up the stairs to his building, stopping just as he opens the door, resting his head on the door frame and looking down at Yoongi....
...“I’ve missed kissing you” Jimin says and Yoongi blushes for the first time in all the time that Jimin has known him, giving him a nod and a small smile. Then Jimin goes inside, shutting the door behind him and resting his back against it to let his racing heart recover....
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